Monday, August 19, 2013
I never wrote about my user name. I think it will show some of the internal conflict I'm having about weight loss.
This past year, when the news broke about the hospital in Texas banning workers with a high BMI, I was completely angry. I almost never log in into message boards but I had to stick it to those trolls on the message board. I created a user name--caretakers--and logged in.
The way I see it is that a caretaker is a special kind of person in this world. People who are caretakers have a wonderful natural ability to tend to another person's needs. Caretakers may even put the needs of others ahead of their own. And being a caretaker can be infinitely draining.
What people don't seem to understand is that overweight people aren't always lazy and slovenly...sometimes they just can't or don't get the time for the luxuries of gym time, careful shopping, food prep, or even tending to their own health issues.
I guess the whole issue is that deep down inside I can't separate slim-and-healthy from selfish-and-materialistic. Yes, in this world where autopilot equals fat, having a decent figure has become the ultimate accessory. I'm spending so much time on myself with all of my weight loss, but I know I can go from hero to 160 the minute someone else might really need me.