Down, certainly not out
Monday, August 19, 2013
I'm feeling crazy in the head. I may have mentioned this once or twice. Since recovering from my illness last week, I've just not had the motivation to resume. It's aggravating! I am super moody and just want to slap myself to snap out of it! Today I did a 20-minute walking video, after putting it off until lunchtime. I'm feeling better for having done it, but I'm still beating myself up.
My eating yesterday ended up being terrible. I didn't even track it. I gave myself permission to overeat. In the back of my mind somewhere, I always know this is a bad idea. In the moment, I never really pay any heed to that notion though. I just want to taste and eat whatever deliciousness is tempting me, and damn the consequences.
So today feels like "starting over," and I'm trying to focus on the basics just to get them out of the way. Drink the water, got the exercise done, eat right. Eat right. Eat right!! I'm feeling emotional about a number of things, and it's weakening my resolve on that front. I don't want to heap on that pile guilt over giving up, so I'm not doing it. I can't do that to myself again, not now. I'm going to finish today strong, and have that as a positive thing that I can go into tomorrow with.