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Monday, August 19, 2013

Some things became clear.

1- I'm trying to race time without a functional hourglass. Need to learn to be ok with being in school longer. Take one semester at a time. Breathe. emoticon

2. I accepted this amazing opportunity to intern at a museum. But I know I need to have space on my schedule. So I'm taking 2 college classes. I almost said 'only' two classes but that diminishes how challenging my schedule will be (work, internship, 2 classes). I need to pump myself up not put myself down because I'm not taking a full course load. I AM A WARRIOR. FORGING AHEAD! I AM DOING GOOD! It's ok to not do everything, because doing everything is actually impossible.

3. I'm going to a nutritionist iyh next Friday for the first appointment. With my schedule, I need someone who will hold my hand because it's challenging to be on top of so many different things.

4. I need to take more pictures of myself. I need to show myself that my body is beautiful no matter the size. I love my dark complexion, full lips, nail beds... I'm not sure about this but I should start taking selfie photos like everyone else my age. I need to take myself less seriously.

5. I need to stop comparing myself to my friends. weight, college, career. I am ME. and I need to learn to be ok with that.
which leads to the age old question of who am i and how does one define themselves.

Tips? Ideas?

Which really is the basis of everything. Needing to be ok with who I am without hiding behind my schedule to validate my existence or using weight as an additional excuse to hide.

Is that what everything comes down to? ideas of self-worth, self-esteem, self-confidence?

I'm not all unicorns and glitter, aka perfect, and that's ok. it's time to turn my back on the clock (and on comparisons) and learn to love me. How is the question...
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    Great blog! Here is the thing...enjoy the time of your life that you are in NOW. Savor it if you can. Yes, take pictures of yourself and revel in your beauty. Don't deprive yourself of the now by looking to far into the future. Have fun, be silly, be happy...heck be into you! As you age, you will have different things to enjoy but yo udon't want to look back and feel like you missed this!
    1677 days ago
  • LJOYCE55
    I agree with your first statement - take a deep breath. The other thing i notice is that you are not letting your weight issue take over your life. You are cramming in so much that is exciting and worthwhile. Working your way through school and interning at the same time are things most of us do not believe can be done, but you are forging ahead fearlessly. So, maybe fearless is one of your key attributes? It is one of the best ones to have and will see you far in life. Work hard and be proud.
    1677 days ago
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