Thank you so much for stopping by.
I am having a lot of trouble staying on track.
When I first started this weight loss journey back in Feb. of 2009... I was
STRONG, there was nothing that could get me off track... I remember going to a buffet, but I would NOT eat anything at the buffet (everything was fried) !!! I wanted something baked, I wanted a salad, and I got just what I wanted!
I did not overeat.
That year I lost almost 100 lbs.... Thinking back this just makes me cry like a baby...
Because I can't seem to get back there...I don't know where my strength, and determination went.
Before... I would ALWAYS faithfully track anything that went into my mouth, now working, and being a single Mom its like where is the time?
Where is my will power? When everything crumbled with my family its like my will power crumbled along with it.
The weekend comes along, and ALL I can think about is FOOD
Food excites me, and I HATE this!!!
I remember in the beginning I seen low fat Twinkies and I would NOT buy them because I knew I would eat the WHOLE BOX.
I know some people say NO food does not have power over you, you CAN only eat ONE...
I'm sorry, until you are tortured with this issue then you have NO clue as to what we go through... I was allowing myself to have one cheat meal on the weekend, ONLY if I did well throughout the week.
And I believe this could be good IF you don't abuse it... Like I have. My weekends have turned into food binges... Friday comes and I don't stop eating until Sunday night.
I dream of the day when I can eat just one piece of birthday cake without later shoving food down my throat when no one is looking.
That is what I do...I have to be honest... I will eat like a mad woman when NO ONE is looking.
I CAN do ALL things through Christ... but God is NOT going to do this for me... There is something he wants me to learn through this...Something that He wants me to use to help others.I must seek Him more on this subject... So many times Prayer about overeating gets left on the back burner because of our busy lives, but this HAS to change... In MY life this MUST change...
So I'm asking ALL Prayer Warriors to Pray for me...
And if YOU need Prayer, PLEASE SparkMail me...I promise to Pray for YOU!!!
We all need each other... Thank you for stopping by. Know I love you