I haven't updated this in a long while and things have been kind of crazy since then! I've learned several things about myself in that time... and while I have not been as successful on the scale, I'm VERY happy with several changes & successes I've had.
To explain a bit... my bf's daughter came to visit us for June-July. It was VERY difficult for me to stay healthy while she was here. She wanted fried food a lot, we ate out more often, it was very easy for me to give in & "splurge." I remember making the statement several times, "I'm on vacation, I can take a break as long as it's nothing too drastic."
I broke a LOT of habits I had--the good ones! And fell back into some negative patterns. I'd say I've "plateau'ed" but I don't think that's fair to people who are more legitimately plateau'ed--you're doing everything right but the scale isn't reflecting it. No, I more... stagnated. I haven't GAINED weight, I've continued to lose at a very slow rate. BUT... here's a short story...
While the kid was here, we went out and did several things. We went hiking at a local beach that was a ton of fun. While we were there, I had bf take my picture because my mom wanted a current pic of me. Here's the pic I sent her:
When I saw this picture, all I saw were the negatives. I saw my belly showing more than I want--I used to have a FLAT stomach and I miss it. I saw that my thighs look ridiculously huge compared to my calves. I looked at it & saw all the ways I've "failed."
It wasn't until my mom called me one day to confess that she'd shown the picture to a friend of hers that I kind of turned around. It's taken me a couple of months to look at that picture and see the GOOD parts instead of focusing on the bad. Sure, I still have goals of being a smaller size, having a flatter stomach, fighting my hamhocks... but I'm in a MUCH better frame of mind.
It's taking a lot of work to get back into the good habits. I'm still not there. I have not been getting in the fitness minutes I should. I haven't been tracking my calories. But maybe sometimes you have to focus on something other than the numbers. I'm getting there & I'm happy to have BLC to work on the numbers game now that I've put in the time on the mind game part of things.
This week my goals are:
-3 days of gym minimum, get a special prize for 5 days
-Limit "lazy food" (i.e. takeout) to 1 night this week
I'm excited for the week!