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Even Slow Progress is Still Progress

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Wow - thank you to all of the amazing people who left comments and were so supportive on my last blog (even today they are still coming in – thank you so much!) You are truly exceptional people and your support means so much to me. Thank you... just, thank you. You are amazing.

I received a lot of great feedback about my big idea of why I can't stay motivated - because in my head I think/feel/pretend that I'm much smaller than I am and capable of all these cool things that I want to be able to do, like hiking mountains and jogging long distances, etc. I felt kind of silly admitting it out loud and was really surprised that so many other people felt the same way! It was a real eye opener - we really are alike and have a lot in common, and with support we can do this!
I've been trying to work on confronting myself and the truth about myself - my size, my limitations, my capabilities, my goals, what I'm working towards and how it takes to get there. No more fooling myself, time to put the work in so that I can see some real life progress! One thing I've started doing is taking a moment in the bathroom at work in front of the full length mirror to really look at myself. Normally I skim and concentrate on my face, not my body. I'm really looking now so that I can get a clearer mental image of myself and more importantly, to accept myself. No - I may not look the way I want, but it's just a starting point, like blue prints to build on.

There was something in a comment someone said and I had one of those “a-ha” moments where something just clicked… I need to learn to love my body – it’s MY body, it doesn’t belong to those who are judging me. When I’m out and about I’m so busy wondering what people think I look like and if they are judging me and if my rolls are showing or if my clothes match. I spend so much time caring about what other people think – if they like me, if they don’t like me, if they are comparing me to someone I’m standing next to, if they’re thinking about me at all – that I forgot… my body is a precious thing, and it’s MINE. It’s always felt like someone else’s, because all I cared about was what THEY thought about both my body and me. But it’s MINE. It’s mine to take care of, to keep healthy, to do what I want with it. I’ve been so irresponsible with my body. I owe it to myself to treat myself better.

I moved my candy/goodie stash at work into the candy dish on my desk to get rid of it, and in less than two days it's practically gone. Good for me, since i don't eat out of my dish but others do! Spreading a little sweetness while getting rid of my stash! In the future I can keep in mind that just because I have a craving doesn't mean I need to go buy a whole bag of something for "future cravings." For example, I bought a middle sized bag of m&m's when I could have just paid a quarter at the vending machine to satisfy my craving. But because I bought the bag because it's more for my money and I can eat it at future times for future cravings I would munch on it just because I had it. I even caught myself reaching for the bag the other day just because I was listening to a movie on my IPod that had m&m's in it and I so without thinking anything other than "m&m's do sound good right now" I reached for them. Luckily I stopped myself and thought to myself, "you don't have a chocolate craving and you're not hungry - you're only reaching for these because you just heard m&m's on your IPod. you don't really even want them, just put the bag back." It made me think of all the times I ate something while watching a movie just because it was habit, not because I was hungry. Or because that movie had a certain food in it that I then wanted just because I saw it on the screen, no real craving for it. I ended up giving away the rest of the bag of m&m's, hehe.

Last night I was having trouble sleeping and an infomercial came on. Just like so many times before. It was for a workout DVD Program, just like so many times before. And I got all caught up in it and started to really think about ordering it. I’ve done this before – I’m the owner of several fitness programs and I’ve never even finished one of them. I’ve never even done all the workouts on any of them. But I caught up in the ordering process and started to place the order… for INSANITY.

I came to my senses before I hit the final confirmation button, but I felt a pang of disappointment. I wanted to purchase the INSANITY program… even though I wanted all the others too. This one is only 60 days, has great results, I went onto to read reviews and there were a ton of great reviews with great results (the majority of the negative reviews were about injuries though – yikes!) Well, this morning I was still thinking about the program… only 45 minutes a day, 60 days, drastic results, etc. I can do that… can’t I?

Well I hope so, because turns out the order took last night because when I went to check my e-mails I had a confirmation e-mail. It should ship within 24 hours and be here within 3-5 days. Updates to come on that.

To finish up, I had a lot of comments on the following quote on my last blog so I’m reposting it: "Many People Quite Because Progress is Slow... Even Slow Progress is Still Progress"
And as a reminder to myself I need to remember - I owe it to myself to treat myself better.

I hope you all have a Sparktastic Day!
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    1436 days ago
    Sounds like you're learning to be more mindful. Work on recognizing your choices and what is motivating your choices. This will help you recognize your triggers (like the m&m thing) so you can overcome them.
    1437 days ago
    Slow progress is always better than none at all. Mine is also at a slow pace. Have been at it on and off for awhile now. But people regularly notice so it will pay off in the long run! As for Insanity, I am sure with your motivation, you can do it. I am on my last week and it really is hard work. Read people's blogs and you will learn a lot on how to cope with it. Just last week, I was ready to almost give up but people still pushed me so I am here pushing to work harder. You will not regret it. My weight loss isn't as much but the fact that people notice that changes have happened is a big victory for me.

    I am sure you can do it! Have a great day working out and enjoy every INSANE minute of INSANITY! We are all here for you!

    1437 days ago
  • CICI510
    I really needed to hear your ah-ha moment because that totally clicked with me too! Thank you SO much for sharing!
    1437 days ago
  • ANRRN12
    Great blog! And great quote, so fitting for my mindset right now. Thank you! emoticon
    1438 days ago
  • WINDY01
    Good read! Thanks for posting a great blog!
    I figure if I didn't take a step backwards, I did make progress!
    1438 days ago
    The corollary to that quote is a motto: "Progress, not Perfection!"

    1438 days ago
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