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What not to expect...

Sunday, August 18, 2013

For starters, I've totally thought up a great idea for my first video blog, now it's just finding some time to do it. I'm on my second week of summer vacation days right now, so it probably won't be for a couple of weeks, but I'm kind of excited about it. Stay tuned.

I was reading through some past posts of mine, and I said something that has my head in a dizzying tailspin of sorts. I wrote back in early July that I was on pace to hopefully weigh 225 by Christmas time, and that although I felt it would be tough, it would make me so happy to achieve that. I now weigh in at 219lbs in mid-to-late August... ... If that doesn't make a man pause and reflect, then they're clearly not humbled by it. My wife asked me the other day if I was really proud of myself, and that question really helped me pull out of the tailspin and focus my thoughts. I AM proud, but moreso than that, I'm extremely humbled. I'm humbled because I still step in front of the mirror expecting to see someone I wasn't happy with, only to be greeted by a guy that I thought was gone for ever. I'm humbled because I don't feel like I've done anything more than others who are on the same journey as me, and so I question why I've been so lucky. My wife said to me then, "you're living the life that everyone tells dieters to never strive for or expect". She meant that the rate of loss is so astounding that people are always told to keep those fancied thoughts far from their mind - to rejoice over a one pound loss and not be sad that it's not more. She's right, she's not just a pretty face folks. :-D

I haven't weighed this much in four years, and even when I weighed this then, it was a higher mix of fat and retained water. So I look better now then I have in closer to five years. It's a feeling I can only best relate to the excitement you feel on Christmas morning as a kid. Waking up with butterflies in your stomach, unable to withstand running downstairs to see what's under the tree. I wake up excited to see who I'll be today, emboldened to deny myself that glass of wine, to not have seconds of an incredible meal, to keep my portion size down, to track every calorie and nutrient, and to make my workout days count for something.

Progress makes the heart grow fonder (I just made that little sentence up!) and so I feel like my story is one of a snowball effect. My heart truly goes out to anyone of you struggling to lose that next pound, angry and disheartened that it just won't come off. Sometimes I regret sharing my success here a little bit, knowing how many of you are in the trenches, trying to cross no mans land, and just not getting a single inch. Progress always encourages us to push harder I feel, and so I know how hard of a time some of you must have, and I honestly wish I could spread some of my loss around for you. My video blog is likely to help give you some insight as to why I've been so successful, but just know that the real work isn't found in the pounds you lose, it's in building up the courage and the focus to throw your body out of the trenches, knowing that bullets will be whizzing by you, and running with wreckless abandon toward the enemies trenches - to be fearless, and courageous, and determined. You do that, and you'll find yourself at the place you need to be each day to create success.

46 pounds lost in 11 weeks. I don't even feel the bullets as they hit me now, I'm just running, with sweat on my face, and tears in my eyes. I won't stop. I can't stop. Push out that extra bit of speed today on your runs. Lift 5 or 10 pounds more than you thought you could in your weight training. Push hard, and refuse to spoil the most important thing you'll ever do by giving into food temptations. You can do it, I didn't think I could ever do it. I know better now. You can do this. You GOT this. Have a great week Sparkies, I legitimately care about each of you and your stories.
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    Thanks for sharing!
    1572 days ago
    Keep sharing your success! Share your momentum with the Spark world ... Who knows what we are capacle of when we work together!!!
    1579 days ago
    1580 days ago
    Well Done!
    1580 days ago
    Great blog!! Great inspiration!! You are rockin every way, shape, and form! Congrats!! Continued best wishes on your journey.
    1580 days ago
  • ANRRN12
    Wow, this is awesome! You are very right, progress does encourage us to push harder. Seeing those results makes us want to see even better results. Thanks for your encouragement!
    1581 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    You should be proud of yourself and what you have accomplished! It isn't easy regardless of fact of the pounds coming off slow or fast. It is nice to see the number go down so fast but it is still hardwork! You are putting in the work and you are getting the results! Good for you! Enjoy it! Enjoy the process and keep moving forward!
    1581 days ago
    It IS amazing to see what we can accomplish when we really give what we've set out to do our all. The boot camp I did leading up to my vacation pushed me to my limits in many ways, but man, did I see great results. Now I've got to do some penance for my vacation-time misdeeds, but I know I have it in me. Like you, I never thought I'd be where I am now and it sure is exciting!
    1581 days ago
    I am so very happy for you! You are a success because you don't take shortcuts, you don't make excuses, and work your tail off! Do not ever be ashamed to share that. You deserve every bit of where you are. And imagine what's still to come....Congratulations!
    1581 days ago
    Love this. It's all so true and you are definitely one of the lucky ones, except I don't really believe in luck. I think you are determined and hard working, you realize that it's about sacrifice. So many people expect to see miracles, but they don't want to work for them. Denying yourself that glass of wine or seconds is the type of discipline needed to succeed. You have done an amazing job and are such an inspiration. Keep going my friend! Definitely keep blogging and inspiring those who need it. Enjoy your vacation.
    1581 days ago
    You're so awesome. I was just clicking through your progress pics before I saw this blog and your journey has been nothing short of astounding. Please never stop sharing your success. We're here to cheer you on the way you do for us. Keep it up, Gregg! Enjoy your vacation!
    1581 days ago
  • SLEE103
    I "liked" this post! GREAT JOB and great post!
    1581 days ago
    You should never regret sharing your successes. It's reading about the successes of others that help push us to keep going!

    "I wake up excited to see who I'll be today, emboldened to deny myself that glass of wine, to not have seconds of an incredible meal, to keep my portion size down, to track every calorie and nutrient, and to make my workout days count for something."

    This statement says it all. This is exactly how I want to feel too!
    1581 days ago
    Your metabolism is in great shape emoticon
    You are doing a fantastic job! Well done for your success!

    Keep it up!!!

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    1582 days ago
    Great blog, congrats on such awesome success!
    1582 days ago
    This process like any process will always be easier or faster for some than it will be for others. Be proud of what you are accomplishing and use your new knowledge and experience to help others. Don't stop sharing your success, seeing you and others succeed helps us see that it's possible with hard work. Supposedly men lose faster than women which may account for some (not all) of your quicker loss but maybe you have some tip or techniques that helped you and would benefit others and you don't realize it. Everyone is different so everyone's journey will be different but we still need to see others succeed and help motivate us to get working, keep trying, keep making those good choices.

    Be proud of yourself and believe in the good you can do with your journey. I for one am proud of you!!

    1582 days ago
    This is the way I needed to start my morning! I'm grocery shopping today; and although it's easy for me to pick up all the healthier food, it's also easy to pick up that one snack that will throw me off track. Thanks! emoticon
    1582 days ago
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