This Roller Coaster
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Part of this weekend's challenge is to blog about how I've weathered the ups and downs of weight loss. I honestly don't know. I couldn't tell you how I picked myself up by the seat of the pants and just kept working hard at shedding this fat suit. I couldn't tell you how it has just clicked (thanks to BLC22) this time around with this whole weight loss thing. It just has and I just do. I guess if I had to pick a how it would have to be my desire to feel great about myself when I walk. To not feel self conscious when I wear a dress and have people look sympathetically at me because I look miserably 8 months pregnant waddling around with 3 kids in tow (sometimes 4 when I have my niece with me).
I just do this whole weight loss thing because I have such a desire to be at a healthy weight so I can be there for my kids. So I can have the energy to keep up with the house and my kids and be active with them. I desire to be able to enjoy my life and currently I can't. I hurt every day. Whether it's my lower back, my upper back, or I have a migraine because it's killing my back to sit up straight and thus puts pressure on my neck. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. So I just do it. I just say "not right now" when I'm offered things that aren't in my calorie range. I say "no thank you" when someone offers me a taste of something that looks oh so yummy but would sabotage my metabolism for three days. And when someone asks me, "why not?" I respond with "I'm losing weight, not trying to maintain my weight. I will indulge every once in a while with that type of food when I'm done losing weight and ready to maintain a healthy weight."