Saturday, August 17, 2013
Whatís going on with me? Good question! I find Iíve once again been placing my work first when I should really be placing myself first.
I have been struggling to figure out what eating plan is best for me. Itís been increasingly difficult for me to find time in which to cook. I feel like I keep going in fits and starts.
Sometimes Iíve just been eating whatever I feel like eating because Iím tired of restraining myself and just want to feel I have some liberty in my life. Then there have been quite a few binges. I took a class once in which we discussed the definition of a binge: Mindlessly consume a large quantity of food. Donít really taste the food and it does matter if hungry or not. Afterwards feel guilty. Lately, Iíve fit into the entire definition except for feeling guilty. I just donít want or care to feel guilty. I know what Iíve done is wrong but it doesnít help to beat myself up about it.
Watched a spider spinning a web this morning through the binoculars. Its web spanned the space between two trees. What must it feel like to spin a web? Spin is a good word for it since the spider travelled round and round in circles.
I took a nap today and it felt wonderful. It was like giving myself a gift.
I have been neglecting working on my website thatís my goal for getting away from having to work for others. I need to get back into this and figure out how to make my priorities really be my priorities.
I am very thankful to have such a wonderful man in my life as well as two fantastic cats and one amazing rat. This morning, when I awakened I felt in awe of how special it was to wake up and be around these very special presences in my life. First thing in the morning is a precious time of day to me.
I am so tired of being overweight and I can feel the strain itís placing on my knees. Iím hoping I can get a plan sorted out that will work for me. I do believe that having a plan is very importantÖrather than just ďgoing with the flowĒ.