A good day but feeling down :(
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Today was the first day that I have stayed on track all day long in the last couple of weeks. I was kind of experimenting with not taking any shots to see what would happen if I ate perfectly and walked. Well... it went great all day until dinner. I started at 100 and stayed between 89 and 140 all day. Right before dinner I tested and realized that with my afternoon snack I was 158 an hour and half later. I decided to take a small shot to be sure dinner wouldn't spike my sugar up. We shall see if it was good enough.
I have felt quite melancholy today. I feel like the world is too loud and upsetting. I wish I didn't feel so yucky. I am on a low dose of medication which I told my doctor was not quite cutting it. I just thought that maybe...like my sugar... weight loss and exercise would reduce my mental issues. Not happening yet at least.
My daughter is having trouble with her friends and that has not helped today. She is so lonely yet so social. She knows lots of people and laughs and jokes around with them. Yet she is lacking close friends that she can trust to confide in. The one friend at school that she has talked to recently about some issues she is having went and told someone else. Of course that person has since spread it around even more. Some of her close friends are very busy with work and sports as well. She is also but it seems that she has free time when others don't. I was so glad that her friend David invited her to a movie this evening. She was really wanting to get out and hang with a friend. She has known David since she was born. The even look similar.
My poor older dog fell trying to get into the car today. I was so excited to take both dogs for a walk but it seems her age is catching up with her. She didn't seem too energetic once we got to the walking area either. Poor old girl. So sad.
I really want to step up my nutrition efforts. So... I bought some items to try this evening. BIG Disappointment. I got some spaghetti made of beans in order to eat less carbs. Yucky!!! I bought some fat free cottage cheese to make a dip with... Yuckier!!! I bought some fat free cheddar cheese to put on top of some yummy lentils I have. EWE!!! I guess I will stick to portion control instead. Who is going to eat all of these rubber band looking noodles? Maybe the dog!
Well... blog number one... not such a bad day I guess... food wise anyway.