End of week three in the 5% Summer challenge. Seems like I should be happy and encouraged. Instead I am frustrated to anger and just plain grumpy!
For three weeks I have very consciously been counting calories, varying exercises from yoga to zumba from walking to gardening.
No weight loss. None. Nada.
Today I started the Spark Solution Diet. I finally got smart and enlisted the help of my biggest saboteur, my husband. My husband is retired, loves to cook, and avoids regular exercise like it is the plague. I took a day off of work yesterday because we are having some unusual mild weather in mid-Missouri. Normally at this time of year you go from air conditioned area to air conditioned area.
I took on a very neglected flower garden. It had grown full of wild honeysuckle and weeds. I spent hours out there and conquered! After that I took on the deck scrubbing and rinsing in preparation of new stain. I'm not talking about power washing, I scrubbed!!
I made the mistake of thinking I would be rewarded for my hard work this morning on the scale. Nope. Weight gain. Been going to bed hungry, grabbing fruit instead of chocolate, exercising every day. Weight gain.
Let it go Gail. This hard work will pay off. Be determined.
The thing that is bothering me most is my attitude. Usually when I am exercising this much I am a happy, calm person. Not so right now. I came so close to getting out of my car yesterday morning at a stoplight and having a stern talk to a young woman that nearly hit me when she drifted in my lane while texting. My grandson was with me. Glad I did not lose my temper with her in front of him. What is going on with me? Why not just honk the horn and get on with my day?
Stress? It was a better week at work but I need to remember the things going on in the back of my mind. My father is dying. He is in his mid-80s and has had a good life. He lives 1200 miles away and has a wonderful wife that is caring for him along with a new hospice nurse.
Money. My husband has been retired for nearly two years and his annuity still is not correct. We have asked the help of a congressman's office since we are dealing with a federal agency. How much longer? Our income is half of what it was two years ago but the house payment is the same.
So hubby bought all the groceries we did not already have on hand for me to start the Spark Solution Diet today. Took him three hours at the store and spent $250! I'm really going to be upset if I don't see any weight loss this week.
Grumble, grumble, poor me. Okay, done with that. Time to go get some exercise (finish another garden bed and scrub the deck stairs). It's a new day and sometimes you just have to let go and let God take over.