A turn for the worse.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
After writing about my stresses in my previous blog, I started to feel better. I was also proud of myself for not eating emotionally after being so upset. I was feeling happy and more optimistic about things and was focusing on the good things such as school starting back up.
Well, as I was packing up to leave tomorrow (I'm at my parents' place) my mom comes in and tells me that I shouldn't come back. Ever.
I'm "selfish" and "will never make it as a good teacher."
And "If you take your stuff with you, you cut off all ties with us."
"Nobody will ever accept or love you."
Wow, did that hurt.
Insult after insult and I have no idea where they are coming from.
Why does it seem like things get harder every time I try harder and try to be optimistic?
I couldn't take anymore, so I went back to bad habits and reached for the first things I could find: cereal and graham crackers.
It's nothing to be proud of. I am just so emotionally overwhelmed that I don't really care anymore at the moment.
I guess tomorrow I will be leaving...and never coming back...