Yeah, I am feeling better, like, officially. Three days in a row. I'm happy about that. I made some questionable food choices over the past few days with my brother here, but nothing terrible, and I also made some really healthy choices, and will continue to make healthier choices for the rest of the week to balance it out.
Today I'm making chuck roast with carrots, potatoes, mushrooms in the slow cooker, and salmon filets with cabbage, carrot, cucumber, peanut slaw and lime ginger vinaigrette.
I also made some basil pesto in my bullet blender from my garden basil, parmesano reggiano, olive oil, lemon juice, and almonds. Froze it in an ice cube tray, then stored the cubes in a ziplock bag in my freezer for quick meals later.
Cardio? Cardio! I'm going for a walk later in the evening.
Cardio for the week: 4/5
Strength Training Done?: not yet (I have been sleeping on the couch and my muscles are aching, but I will get it done tomorrow.. better late than never).
This weekend I am going to begin refreshing myself on my Japanese before classes starts next week. I just want to be prepared. It's going to be more challenging to find time to cook and exercise during this semester, but I know I can make it work with some time management and pre-planning.
New Weekly Goals: Since I will be getting so much cardio walking around campus, I'm not going to aim for 5 cardio workouts per week any longer; Just going to track my strength training/yoga, and focus on nutrition... and if I have extra energy to go for a swim or something that's great, but if not, that's okay too. I suspect it will take me a while to become acclimated to all this walking.
I'm nervous. Nervous to be around so many people, worried about how I look, what I'll wear, etc., but not about whether or not I can do it -- I KNOW I can do it. It's okay to be nervous. The anxiety is a part of me, and I'm learning to control it... and I won't allow fear or self-doubt to drive me to avoiding my responsibilities, or neglecting my health as I have done in the past. I am evolving. I am just as worthy a person as anyone else on campus, and my weight, size, appearance, or clothes don't diminish or enhance that fact.