Friday, August 16, 2013
Wow. I haven't had very much time for Sparking or blogging due to work. I failed to track my food for the past 3 days, and I succumbed to the vending machine twice. I was out of sparkfood and starving. I don't understand why I've been so disorganized!
I've been offered work with an extra 9 dollars an hour for incentive tonight, but I just don't think I can do it. I'm tired, so very tired, even after being off last night. I have to get myself together. But I am going to have to work 10 extra shifts between now and November, because there is a burn conference in Florida that I want to go to, and if I want to do that, then I have to earn the money to pay for it. Just not tonight.
Work has been getting better, for the most part. I'm settling into the routines and rhythm of the BICU. I was told I'm on the shortlist for going to Augusta for further training, but I have nothing in writing yet, and no idea when it might be. The learning curve is still almost vertical. Take the intensity of regular ICU and dial it up to 11, that is Burn.
I'm hanging in there. People are starting to trust me. I haven't gotten pulled aside into the med room lately, which is what you do when you want to counsel someone in private rather than calling them out in front of God and everybody. I also haven't been called out lately, which is a greater relief than I can express. I've done some regular admits, and got to assist with some hot admits. My confidence is growing, slowly.
I've also had it suggested to me that I would be good in the ER, because I was good at defusing a situation. Umm, no. Slow, precise, and fussy is exactly what they don't need in the ER. But I'm grateful a thousand times over for the compliment.
Even though this blog is all about working, I still feel the influence of SparkPeople in the way that I have started to look at things, set goals, and seek out the positive. I stretch every chance I get, drink more water, and take better care of myself. It is hard to express the way that I am changing, but I do know that I am a different person since starting Spark. I don't think I'm going to meet my goal of losing down to 250 by the end of August, but I do know that I'm becoming a better person. And after a little more rest, I'm going to go to the health club and see what I can get into.
I hope that all of my Spark friends are well and happy, and having what they need. I have appreciated everyone's support so much!