Friday, August 16, 2013
The face of dementia...
Look at her. My mother in law. No one could know she has dementia just by a photo. You'll know right away when she speaks. Dementia is a thief! It steals your memory. It steals your personality. It steals everything that once was an actual human being.
Odd. Back in the day when Gramma was who we knew her to be, she was...well, difficult. She just wasn't a people person. She didn't like to babysit the grandkids or spend much time with them. But all of that is behind us now. Today, gramma is very sweet, pleasant, and yet a chore at the same time. LOL! Who knew things would turn out like this. I have learned a lot of life lessons just by being her care giver alone. My children ask me how I could be so sensitive and patient with her. They seem so bitter. I tell them it is the Lord that helps me do what I have to do to take care of gramma. It's called agape love. Loving someone who doesn't return love. Make no mistake, it is very difficult...or WAS for me in the beginning. Nowadays gramma is no longer the gramma we once knew. Forgiveness is key to any relationship. Life lessons are endless. I can hide behind the door of anger, resentment, or whatever else goes along with negative feelings. What good would it do now? Today, I just trust the Lord to help us do what needs done. My friends have told me I'll get thru this. I tell them I don't want to "just get thru this"! I want to be better! My husband tells me all the time...I don't know how you do it, but I appreciate it! Dementia steals the memory of people, but it also teaches us a host of lessons as well. I try not to dwell on what was or what might be. Instead, even though I cry sometimes, I know for sure God is in it and I believe He knows my heart, and will take care of us...no matter what!