Friday, August 16, 2013
I have had a gift with words since I was just a child. I've always known just what to say to lighten the mood, I even make bad jokes at funerals because I cannot bear to see others in pain and I always want to "give" back. It is no secret I've been a member of Sparkpeople since 2006 and while I have lost 30 lbs or so I have not successfully lost more or even come truly close to my goal. I've yet to walk my way into Onederland. I have seen so many of my Sparkfriends make their way to Onederland and I have never once said I wish it was me instead of them, I love seeing others reach their goals. I don't ask "why not me" because deep down I know I am responsible for my own actions and it is my actions that got me here and keep me here. Yes, I have health problems that slow my weight loss versus someone else my age (chemotherapy and radiation have destroyed my thyroid), but I can walk for an hour no problem, heck I finished my first 5k this year! I only walked it but it was just the beginning. In fact I have two coming up next weekend (on the SAME day no less). I want to say I'm ready to really make these changes and I am doing better, but I need to give it my all and not go halfway anymore.
I sometimes just come to Spark and get my sparkpoints and don't do much else, but something happened on the way to driving up my sparkpoints...I saw that little sparkpoint amount for commenting on others blogs. I can't comment on a blog without reading it, and along the way I started reading and commenting on a LOT more than 5 blogs per day. I love hearing people's successes; cheering them on. I love being able to be a positive light if they are having a bad day. I love that these virtual strangers (pun intended) are sharing little insights into their lives with those of us here in Spark, not sure if anyone reads their blogs, not sure if anyone really cares. I'm here to tell you, I do care, I don't comment on blogs just to get those Sparkpoints anymore, I comment because I feel where you are coming from or I wish I did so I could ease your burden or share your joy or even share your successes. Your successes INSPIRE me! And if they inspire me, who doesn't do enough on her journey, they inspire others who do give it 100%. Don't ever doubt that when you post a blog it isn't going to help or touch someone out there, even if they aren't like me and compulsive responder because I do love all of you.
An interesting thing happened along the way of commenting on others blogs, people started to thank me on my spark page or respond back to me there. I don't check it real often, but tonight I had a few minutes so I did. I hadn't checked it in a few weeks obviously because people whom I had commented on their blogs weeks and weeks ago left me comments back and I didn't read them till tonight. The fact that you took the time to come to my blog and give me a little bit of love back, you guys ROCK.
I'm going to make some serious changes coming up, the first of which is that I changed my class schedule through school to not taking a week off anymore between classes. I only have 5 classes left to graduate..time to STEP it up! I am going to rock out these last few classes and then I am going to look for a REAL job. I miss working, I miss having extra money instead of stealing from peter to pay paul so to speak. I want to be able to take my kids out on "dates" along with mom and dad once every couple weeks or so instead of once every couple months. I want to join a REAL gym, I want to be able to swim in our cold butt winters, I want to have a reason to get out of the house each day instead of wallowing in my chair snacking on something I shouldn't be eating.
Each of you inspire me, and it's time I inspire others with more than just my words...I want to be one of you! Thanks for sticking around, being my sparkfriend even when I wasn't very true to Sparks goals, that's going to change!