Thursday, August 15, 2013
Yesterday morning I had one.
It's not about exercise though. This is going really great.
It's about my finances.
I had bills to pay - electricity and internet - and so after strenght training I sat down in front of my budget, which I hadn't touched in almost a month, and did my business. Paid my bills, entered my expenses, etc. as every other week.
But then I discovered something I didn't wanna see: I once again went over my credit card limit. The thing is, sometimes that happens - because I forget to put some money on it when I get a pay, or because I've spent a huge amount on something - but this time it just... happened. I hadn't been paying attention to my finances for all Summer and this is what I get, obviously.
The other thing is, I didn't have any money to lower it under my limit. And I won't have a pay until Friday next week - which meant that I couldn't put gas in my car (which had the gas light on), couldn't afford groceries, couldn't pretty much do anything.
I panicked, and this led to a huge panic attack, crying and gasping for air in my bed next to my clueless boyfriend. I finally called off at job - I was looking and feeling horrible, didn't want any questions from colleagues, and didn't want to bother actually living that day. Boyfriend was kind enough to give me 15 bucks for gasoline. I spent the day inside (it's so chilly nowadays...) planning my finances (FOR REAL.), playing the Sims, cleaning, cooking, reading and relaxing. I REALLY needed this day off, alone.
After supper I went to a friend's house, he's on vacation and I'm feeding his (awesome) cat, then I met with a friend at a cafe. I hadn't seen her in ages (since early Spring) and that was nice. But I had a latte because it was their choice of the day on special and for some reason I wasn't aware that lattes are ridiculously high in calories and carbs. When I entered it into my food tracking I had to pick up my jaw from the floor. Add to that a little piece of toffee (I asked for the littlest one lol, instead of having a huge piece of cake, I think I'm good) and my snacks total for the day was bigger than all of my meals. Ugh.
Anyway, that kinda stuff happens. I didn't bother. I'll know for next time and stick to my usual tea, lol.
Exercise-wise, everything is going incredibly well. I think I randomly became a runner this week - I wanna run all. The. Freaking. Time. I ran this morning and I feel like running again. I'd do every morning if I'd listen to myself. But I don't wanna get tired of it, I don't wanna wear myself off, and I do enjoy the inside strenght training thrice a week.
Speaking of running the boyfriend and I are just back from my favorite running boutique in the city and he bought a pair of pretty good running shoes since his old ones are too small and crappy. I really hope he's gonna start running with me FOR REAL now! XD
Last news, I cancelled my subscription to the 21 kms run organized by my job. I wasn't able to train often enough for it, and this lump under my ribs keeps hurting when I run - I get really bad cramps there - and I'm afraid I just won't be able to do the whole thing. But, the Color Me Rad run was the same day (which helped me cancel...) and just when I was thinking about cancelling a friend of mine (the one with the cat I'm catsitting) wrote me on Facebook that he wanted to do it and asked me if I was subscribing.
HELL YEAH I AM
So it is done, it's September 7th at 10:20 in the morning. I'll have to buy a white t-shirt and I think I'll wear my knee-high neon pink socks to the run, LOL. That'll be freaking fun :D
My job is still organizing another run in October though, for breast cancer. I might do this one!