Thursday, August 15, 2013
Ok, so I did a "bad" thing today. Well, for a little background, I live with my grandmother. I find it difficult to set limits and enforce them when I do set limits. Today, my grandmother woke up with "low" blood sugar. Meaning 60. This is the low end of acceptable, but as Grandma tends to hang out around 260, she felt a little uncomfortable. So, I made her a healthy breakfast. I have not been doing these sorts of things as it quickly transitions from me doing a nice thing for her to it is "expected" and mandatory.
So, after her breakfast and her subsequent nap (she is having sugar control issues at the moment), she began asking me to make "treats". Cookies, cakes, pancakes with blueberry sauce, treats. I said I didn't want to make treats and offered her a Diet Dr. Pepper, because we usually do not have any and I thought it was a reasonable alternative in terms of my time and her sweetness craving.
However, I began worrying about it, and made brownies. Then, I ate one serving of brownies with her (and ice cream). About half an hour later, I ate another brownie. Now, they were homemade (not from a mix), but I DID NOT WANT the first brownie. And now I've eaten TWO! I need to make an appointment to see a therapist. I feel crazy (and a little stupid).