So its been an interesting week of self reflection, and well I am blogging/sharing it if even for my own benefit to remind myself of my thoughts this week down the road when I am frazzled and crazy again!
So this week started with the crazy Monday morning after my delightful 19 year old caused me lack of sleep, yet I moved on and got my work out in.
Tuesday I saw my PT and we did Tabata for my upper body workout. Ok I know lots of you out there have jumped on this whole insanity workouts P90X etc, but well I hadn;t and this stuff was truly insane, I did in fact get sick at the end of my workout!
Wednesday my usual cardio partner is away, but I did manage to get my butt out of bed and did my usual 40 mins of cardio. Perhaps its time to up that to 45......hmmmmm
Wednesday work day however was the day from hell! if there was a problem it occurred, and I felt so overwhelmed! This after some major weeks of stress and craziness at work that had me in a rather negative frame of mind.
So Wednesday night became rather interesting, my legs were killing me even though I didn't really work them that hard, I mean there was some squats in bodypump and my upper body workout but no where near how I work them in my lower body workout. Yet they felt like I had put them through several rounds and I couldn't imagine doing my lower body workout Thursday morning. . And my mind, well that was a whole other ball game, it was stressing over my mid year review on Thursday, worrying way too much.
SO Thursday morning rolled around, and well my lower body workout, though it killed me and had me sweating all over the floor, was a success, I worked my way up to 165lbs on the barbell while I did my squats in the last round! And my mid year review with my boss, although not 100% complete yet, went rather well overall. She had good, positive feedback on my performance and I was able to talk to her about the stress of the last few weeks and find something good out of it.
So I can't help but wonder if this time, my mind was playing cruel tricks on me, that my legs really weren't that sore, but my apprehension made them feel worse, And that my inner stress over work needs to take a deep breath and let it go, its so not worth it and it really will all work itself out! Maybe matter over mind this time is where I should look?
I just wish I could find a way to get over this weight lose hump, yes I am down 2 pounds this week, but its the 2 pounds I didn't record 2.5 weeks ago cause I gained it back, I am eating way healthier than I ever have, and I am working my butt off 5 days a week, but I can't seem to get below my current weight for like almost a month now.
Dietician appt next Wednesday, maybe my insulin pump needs adjustments to decrease my dosage and that will create more weight lose, fingers crossed, or maybe my mind just has to start telling me I can versus I can't. hmmmmmmm