Thursday, August 15, 2013
So, I have been doing great with my eating - even with the stress that I have with work. Basically, I am being pushed out of my current job and it makes for a stressful work day. Unfortunately, I have no desire to get up early and workout or go after work, either. I am in a slump and I feel like it is because I am so mentally and physically exhausted after work that I can't think of doing anything else. Then, all I do is think about work throughout the night and I don't sleep because I wake up thinking about the situation and everything on my To-Do list.
I am not a quitter, it is not something I do - but I just feel like working in this environment is toxic. Unfortunately, I have not yet found another job and we are not financially situated where I can be without a job. It is to the point where I am actually closing my door so that I can cry in my office. Today hit me extremely hard and after I complete a task, I just start crying.
My husband is leaving work early today and picking me up at 4p.m. so that I don't have to ride the bus. I feel like at any moment I could crack and public transportation is not something I feel like dealing with! I just feel lost - I feel like I am failing at work to keep my job, failing at acquiring a new job, and failing at my health in general. I am tired of feeling hopeless in everything that I do and I want to feel better.
Sorry for the downer post - I just really needed to get this out there and SparkPeople is always where I turn!
trying to MAKE TODAY COUNT!