Let me start this by saying, to everyone who read my last blog and donated/shared my friends story, thank you. We have raised over $3,000 since then, and are now sitting at $5,240. There's still more needed, but we are well on our way there. So thank you, from the very bottom of my heart.
And now on to my disappointment.. This has been a really super rough week for me! To give you all a little TMI (men, close your eyes now!) I am really irregular, and so I've been PMSing for a month now without getting my monthly, this week has been the worst. I over ate by a LOT on Sunday and Monday. Tuesday, I was back on track with food, but I didn't work out. Last night, I did Zumba, but couldn't do my regular boot camp ST DVD because my knee was hurting. This was the week I was hoping to break into Onederland, but with as craptastic as its been, I'm not sure I will. Tuesday night was stressful to the max for me, and I had a total meltdown. I got word that one of the AP people at my work hates me and is trying to get me fired by trying to accuse me of STEALING. Now, I am a really hard worker. I go in early, Ill stay later, I'll help in multiple departments, I do whatever I can do be a good worker. I try to be pleasant to everyone, helpful to those who need.. Etc. So to hear that.. I completely broke down. I called my best friend and was absolutely hysterical, screaming and crying so hard I could barely even breathe. Didn't get to bed until 4 in the morning. The next day I talked to one of my managers, and he said that he's pretty sure I won't get fired. And even if they somehow "found" something to fire me on, he said its at least a 4 month long process with lots of coachings along the way, so I would know. So I feel slightly better about it now, all I can do is just go to work, pretend I don't know anything, and keep smiling and working hard. And pray that they don't make up a reason to fire me, I can't afford the cut in both pay and hours by going to a different job.
So this week has definitely been crap, and this morning was really no exception. It was my day to take measurements and take pictures. So naturally, I didn't lose any inches, and I don't see any changes in the pictures. I really don't understand. I'm definitely losing weight, the scale is moving. My clothes are fitting looser, I'm definitely losing inches.. So.. What gives?! So very frustrating. Maybe I'm just bloated, I don't know. Anyway, here's my progress pictures over the last 3 months. Don't laugh.
From the back, I literally see NOTHING. No difference. How is it even possible?! I'm working my ass off. I'm strength training. I'm doing good cardio. I'm eating enough, and eating lots of healthy foods. I'm making sure I take accurate rest days, and getting enough water and sleep. SO FRUSTRATING. If the evil SCALE is showing progress, how is it that pictures and measurements won't, even though those are supposed to be the most accurate?! Uh! I definitely am not giving up, I'm still forging ahead. But this is very frustrating. I'm ready for this week to be over, and for next week to start and be BETTER.
I hope you all are having a lovely week.