Thursday, August 15, 2013
I've lived my life by a to-do list for years. I always felt so accomplished when I was able to check things off of the list. I used the it as incentive/a big push to get chores or projects done. I loved it and couldn't imagine life without such a list. The list was my friend. It kept me focused and feeling productive.
I've changed my mind. Lately, this list has become my enemy. I no longer feel motivated it. I feel guilty and irresponsible. Smothered. There are items on my list that stay there for days, even weeks. They must not be important.
I was raised believing that if a person was not working at something, they were lazy. And that was unacceptable. Spotless home. Manicured lawn. Organized drawers and closets. Clean baseboards. The list goes on forever, repeating itself into infinity!
I have since learned the value of rest and relaxation. I have learned to live more in the moment. I've learned to spend time nurturing inner self and just goofing off!
I'll still use a list as a calendar to remind myself important dates, appointments and deadlines. Chores and projects will not appear on my new list, which I'm re-naming "Calendar." duh!
The chores might get done. If they don't, it's ok. The sense of relief I feel is amazing!