Thursday, August 15, 2013
Far too often, I am ruled by the numbers on the scale. Too many times, I've given the numbers the power to choose my mood, my feelings about myself. For months, I did not weigh at ALL...but there also was no success in that for me because without weighing it was easy to "forget" I weighed 250 pounds.
So, for awhile now, I have been following the ritual of getting on the scale every morning, just to remember what I weigh and to start my day with the motivation to remove some of that weight. At first, it was really hard not to freak out about the numbers. Sometimes, frankly, I still do.
Again and again, we read on other's blogs and hear in their comments on our own - the number isn't important, it's how you feel, etc. This is true, but it's also not as concrete as seeing a 20 pound weight loss.
I've added in a lot of activity in the last eight mnths where previously I was very sedentary. I didn't THINK I was sedentary, but the Fitbit showed me just how wrong that thinking was.
I'm training for my first 10K Labor Day weekend. I've done several 5K over the years...but since I walked the Portland Marathon in '96, 5K was my longest event. I've been working on adding in zumba in the mornings and walking at night when it's cooler.
The scale is going the wrong way. Not terribly, 2 or 3 pounds up.
I thought to myself this morning: I do not have the energy to get my 10,000 steps in a day AND obsess about my weight. What's important here Lisa?
I decided what was important was completing that 10K in 120 min or less and not being wiped out when I finished. That's a 20 min mile average. I'm capable of a faster speed, but right now - certainly not for 6.1 miles worth. What my weight is the day of the race is not as important to me as feeling successful, finishing it and not pooping out at the 5K mark, and doing it in a time that is reasonable.
So this morning when I got on the scale and it again showed a 3.5 pound gain from last week, I said out loud "Whatever scale, you don't rule me".
That's where I am today boys and girls....Just another day in paradise...