Thursday, August 15, 2013
The title explains my life lately. Especially my food and exercise life.
I've always done this. Start out raring to go, doing everything right, SparkStreaking up a storm, taking on the world. Then crash, down I go: making bad food choices and things happening to hinder my exercise routine. Down, down, down. Down is a 4-letter word! Sometimes I stay down for a while, then I pull myself UP and get back on it and off we go again! Yes, I'll make it this time! I can do this! Until the next time I go down.
Are you sensing a pattern here? I certainly am. I need consistency. I need the ability to do what I do - the right thing to do - no matter what is going on around me. I am too affected by my environment. I need to let go of the start/stop mentality. It is actually pretty silly to think like that. I don't "start" life, then "stop" life, only to "start" it again. Life just is; I live it everyday. I need to decide how I want to live that life. No, that's not quite right. I have already decided that I want to live a long, healthy, satisfying life. Now I have to figure out how to do that. I need to make life fit into what is healthy, instead of fitting healthy into what is my life. I've tried fitting healthy into life, but it is like trying to cram 6 pairs of shoes into 1 shoebox. It isn't working. Instead, I need to clean out my "life" closet, and get rid of the (unhealthy) habits and thought patterns that no longer fit who I want to be. Then I need to re-organize the "life" closet so everything that is healthy fits inside.
They don't even know this, but my buddies (I love my buddies!) are helping me to do this. They have been sharing tips for healthy habits I can use no matter what kind of hell is breaking loose all around me, and no matter what that little devil in my head is telling me to do (eat this! skip that workout!)
I am not yet where I want to be. I'm not talking about being at goal weight, I mean that every day I am not doing the things I want to be doing to create a better life for myself. But I do know one thing. I am not giving up. I am getting UP, standing UP, charging UP, and STAYING UP!