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Hope Can Be a Fragile Thing

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Now that I'm settled into my SparkPeople nutrition tracking for a few weeks, I've seen very small losses, despite I really DO track every single day and track honestly, and I'm staying in my "goal" (if at the high end of it) most days...only a few "oops" of going "over" by 100 or 200 calories.

It's hard to fathom, in my little brain, why when I'm eating FAR less calories per day than I was previously, the weight isn't just dropping off! I'm easily eating 500 to 1000 calories per day LESS than before I began my efforts to lose. And in the last couple of weeks I've only lost a couple of pounds...and looking like this week I'll be just "staying the same" once again. HUH??? I don't GET it!

I know I haven't exactly jumped on the exercise the way I should. I could list all my excuses, or I could just tell the truth...I've never enjoyed exercising, even when I was younger, thinner, and had a lot less aches and pains than I do now! So I've allowed myself to make small changes...I park far from the doors when I go shopping, to appointments, etc. I spend SOME time every day being what I call "active"...whether that's a stroll around the block, or doing some vigorous vacuuming and floor-mopping. It's not sitting in the recliner reading a book, therefore it's active, in my book!

So, if I was following my past pattern, at this point I would throw up my hands, decide I just wasn't meant to EVER lose weight, and give up. I'd also heap more derision and self-loathing on myself, and get depressed and miserable.

But I'm not doing that.

Hope is indeed a fragile thing. It's so easily overcome by the least failure, the least setback, the least imperfection in whatever "The Plan" might be.

My "success", this time around, this journey toward weight-loss and health, is that I am nurturing my HOPE. I refuse to beat myself up any more for "failures", real or perceived. I refuse to relinquish my belief that I am meant to be healthy, to succeed, to celebrate each day of life, even those days I fall short of what I've set for myself.

Because no matter what my size, no matter the calories I counted or the exercises I did or didn't do, I am going to remain HOPEFUL. I know that beating myself up leads nowhere I want to go. I know that my fragile little friend, HOPE, is all I have to cling to some days. So I will guard and nourish that part of my being, and know that just being here, just staying with it, is worthy of celebration.

And, eventually, HOPE and I will join hands with another fleeting feeling...VICTORY.

Wishing all of you a day filled with hope, happiness and the certainty that you are a unique and wonderful creation, right now, just the way you are.


  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

PUREHEART_315 8/16/2013 12:13PM

    Sweet Jane,
I believe every day you log on SparkPeople and track your nutrition and/or exercise is a victorious day, regardless of the results. The fact that you are here working on your goals to being healthier is progress. It's a learning process. You are becoming more aware and making small changes. Please remember weight loss is about healthy eating AND exercise. On days you don't feel like exercising try going outside for at least a 10 minute walk. The fresh air will boost your mood. Focus on doing the activities that you do enjoy. Stay motivated!

For those of us over 50, we have slow metabolisms and have to watch our calories closely. Try staying at the lower range of the calorie limit. Or, if you are going to eat more calories...even 100 or 200... be prepared to work them off if you want to see results! It's the only way.

You have a SparkFamily that understands and is here to support you. You are not alone. Be patient with yourself. I am not losing weight like I thought I would and had to change my goal date to give myself more time. I have been reading "The Spark Solution" and you may find it helpful too. Blessings to you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NHES220 8/15/2013 12:42PM

I have been with SparkPeople since just after Christmas and I usually lose about a pound a week, some weeks less and some weeks the scale does not move. So far I am down about 30 lbs. Just remember, a lb is 3500 calories. That means you need a deficit of 3500 calories - either cut from your diet or burning with exercise to lose a lb. When I first joined, I set my goal at 2 lbs a week and then I quickly realized that was not going to happen and I reset it to 1 lb a week. Since this is a journey, I encourage you to settle in, make changes you can live with. If you can, move more, drink more water, eat more complex carbs. But make sure they are changes you can stick with for the long haul. That way the weight you lose will stay lost! Best of luck to you on the journey.
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DLYNN1113 8/15/2013 10:32AM

    I sympathize with you, I've been doing the same, walking as much as I can, doing my bike, but at times I have to admit I have been below the calorie range, so I don't know if that is my problem. I am losing but it is sloooooow. I too keep hoping it is just going to turn around and maybe next week it will be better, won't know if I don't keep trying. emoticon

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ELRIDDICK 8/15/2013 9:23AM

  Thanks for sharing

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LADYBUG546 8/15/2013 9:21AM

    Well said... emoticon ....check the sodium in the food you have been eating and the sugar. Fruits are good and bad at times and especially if you are not flushing your body enough with water.

I find this happens to me and especially if I am stuck at my desk all day and not active moving around in my job. emoticon

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LIBRARIANKATE 8/15/2013 9:19AM

  What a thoughtful and inspiring post! Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I needed to hear just that message today!

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