Thursday, August 15, 2013
I'm not sure where the motivation went. Somewhere between life, rolled ankle and boyfriend's ruptured discs in his neck and I've been packing weight on again and forgetting to go to Bikram, and forgetting to do much of anything but go home after work, cook an amazing meal (generally healthy), and fall into bed.
Then on July 13, he proposed. Things suddenly changed with thoughts of wearing white and a wedding and planning. All of a sudden I'm looking at pics of myself going, oh no. And in summer, since I don't wear jeans, but skirts and capris, I forget that pain of trying to shimmy into a pair of stiff jeans and sucking in the gut to try to button them. So the other day when I went to get in my jeans, it was a struggle that I eventually abandoned in favor of the skirt (elastic waist).
So the hunt for wedding dresses has begun and lets be honest, I'm not a frilly, ball room girl, which there goes the perfect way to hide the bulge. Plus, we're essentially having an outdoor, yard wedding at the bay...so relaxed in satin is looking better and better....if satin didn't show every lump.
So today is my 29th birthday. And we're getting married on May 17th. I have less than 10 months to get back to where I was, at least comfortable in my skin, and ready to party it up in May.
So, starting tomorrow, back to working out full gear. This means Bikram yoga in the am, gym in the pm, or vice versa. Time to get back to working out, tracking food, tracking excercise, posting blogs and keeping track of weight again. I fell behind. It's been about four months since I was passionately doing this. Need to find that passion again.
The white dress? It might be just the motivation I needed.