Wednesday, August 14, 2013
LIfe has been so stressful I am losing my brain. I went and took my drivers test again today and FAILED again! The first time I did not shoulder check enough on right hand turns and everything else I did perfectly. I was so focused on shoulder checking on a right hand turn today I didn't completely stop on a stop sign and automatically failed.
I have been trying so hard to make positive changes in my life but with everything else with my son and all of his appointments and helping him get better, researching and regulating him,keeping up with the house and having a marriage I feel so burnt out. With my sons sensory he is so sensitive to my moods and I was nervous about my test last night he was waking up every hour screaming I got no sleep.
My son starts preschool next month and will have to have an aid, O.T. and speech as well while he is there that I have to have my licence to drive him. I feel like such a failure. I really have to do this for him. I just need to find a away not to feel so burnt out.
But I know I am a good driver but all the anxiety and stress have not been putting me in a good place. I love my son and family but I have to have a break from only being a wife and mother 24 hours a day. I am not surviving.
I will book my test again. It is all about trying and picking yourself up when you fall down and not let it get me down.