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Day #38 Failing and Stress

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

LIfe has been so stressful I am losing my brain. I went and took my drivers test again today and FAILED again! The first time I did not shoulder check enough on right hand turns and everything else I did perfectly. I was so focused on shoulder checking on a right hand turn today I didn't completely stop on a stop sign and automatically failed.

I have been trying so hard to make positive changes in my life but with everything else with my son and all of his appointments and helping him get better, researching and regulating him,keeping up with the house and having a marriage I feel so burnt out. With my sons sensory he is so sensitive to my moods and I was nervous about my test last night he was waking up every hour screaming I got no sleep.

My son starts preschool next month and will have to have an aid, O.T. and speech as well while he is there that I have to have my licence to drive him. I feel like such a failure. I really have to do this for him. I just need to find a away not to feel so burnt out.

But I know I am a good driver but all the anxiety and stress have not been putting me in a good place. I love my son and family but I have to have a break from only being a wife and mother 24 hours a day. I am not surviving.

I will book my test again. It is all about trying and picking yourself up when you fall down and not let it get me down.
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SWEETZMIX 8/18/2013 7:43AM

    I don't know you or your story, but hey you got the right attitude. I can tell by this line, " It is all about trying and picking yourself up when you fall down and not let it get me down." I actually need to take my road test again. I failed before I got pregnant and then when I was supposed to retake it, Hurricane Sandy hit and everything was delayed for WEEKS. I live in the Northeast by the way. And while I was waiting to get rescheduled I started to feel worn down. Before I knew it, I found out I was preggo. Now I have a 24 day old & I still need to get my license as well. My job is moving to another county next year and I need to be able to drive there, drop off the baby and stuff. Public transportation to work will take a minimum of 2 hours during rush hour. It's stressful, considering I need to pay for more lessons and stuff. So I feel your pain. I hope you can maybe take a mommy day soon. No hubby, no kid....best of luck to you!!

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LYNNA7499 8/14/2013 8:36PM

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Sorry to hear you didn't pass your test. Getting your son the services in preschool will be a huge help. My son is almost 7. He started preschool at 3 1/2 because he needed assistance. He was later diagnosed with Autism/ADHD. The services he received in school have made a huge difference.

I also suggest trying to take a little time for yourself. Even if it is just a 30 minute walk. Don't stress, just clear your mind.

Let me know if you ever want to talk.

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RUNNERRACHEL 8/14/2013 6:53PM

    emoticon sorry to hear about the test! Stress can make us feel so worn out. I hope you can find time to relax. Don't put pressure on yourself or talk negatively to yourself. You can do it. You will pass. Be positive. I'll pray for you. Hope you can get some relief from the stress and are able to have time to yourself. emoticon

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PROPMAN1 8/14/2013 1:42PM

  Could you re-schedule your test so that it's early before everything gets going? Maybe with less going on before the test you can be in the moment and remember all you need to for the test. Am sure that's too simple a response but....I wish you all the best!!

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