Hi Spark World!
It's been a LONG time...it looks like I posted my last blog in December. So many things have changed, yet so many have stayed the same.
I've been yo-yo dieting, trying to lose weight, joined Weight Watchers, etc. with no success. Not that I don't think certain diets or WW doesn't work - they just don't work for me. You know what worked for me a few years ago? Sparkpeople. It's time to come back to old faithful.
I turn 30 next year and I've begun a new "Light Bulb" challenge. Here is an excerpt from my latest blog over on happyhealthyashley.wordp
I have said since my very early 20s that I thought my light bulb on life - i.e. everything would make since, be clear, have meaning - would happen when I turned 30. I don't know why, and truly, I'm not quite sure what that even means, but I do know that I have exactly 64 weeks (448 days) to figure it out. And figure it out I will!
I was going to start on Saturday or Monday, because that's how I normally do things. I have to "get it all out of my system" before starting fresh only to repeat this same vicious cycle. I was talking with Peter last night and asked him when I should start and he said tomorrow. I kid you not, this is our exact conversation:
Me: I don't want to start tomorrow. I want to gorge myself with a last meal. [Yup, isn't that the classic food addict mentality?]
Peter: It's always your last meal but it never is. Don't you deserve better?
He is absolutely right. I do deserve better - so does he. He deserves a wife who has the energy to go out and do things with him, who he doesn't have to worry about her healthy, who feels like she belongs on the arm of her healthy-weight husband, who can possibly have a healthy pregnancy when it comes to have children. I want a long life with my amazing husband. I know that you have to lose weight for yourself, but Peter is a large piece of my motivation.
With that conversation in mind, I'm starting today. I may not be perfect and my fridge isn't completely stocked but losing weight and being healthy is all about figuring out what works for you. I don't want to diet; I want to have a healthy diet but I don't want to be on a diet. I don't want to always be waiting to eat normal again. I want this lifestyle to be my new normal. So last night, I canceled my Weight Watchers subscription. I truly believe that WW is an awesome program, but it just isn't working for me. It's the classic case of "it's not you, it's me." I can't be trusted with that much flexibility and will be looking at meal plans that offer variety but are tailored towards a daily calorie intake. I am going to be using my old faithful, Sparkpeople.com*. The last time I was successful at losing weight, I counted calories using the food tracker on Sparkpeople. I figured if WW wasn't really working for me at this time, then why not try something else?
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