Yeah, the 30 day challenge train derailed and never quite got back on track.
I'm fine with that. I came to this realization that I just need to be OK with me NOW. I keep striving for "perfection" as I imagine it in my mind, but it's going to take true dedication and sacrifice to get to THAT high standard, which is something like this:
and that is just NOT going to happen. I simply don't want to give up my occasional drink, or chips & guacamole or eating things off the beaten path at social events. To me, it's just not worth it. Maybe I'll change that view someday.
What I do know is if I could stay a size 8-10 my whole life, I'm perfectly A-OK with that.
Also, you know, EVERYDAY PEOPLE (not fitness models, airbrushed celebs, etc) have imperfections that make us unique. Was with a friend recently who has what I consider to be a pretty darn close-to-perfect body. But you know what? She has cellulite on her legs. I saw another woman at the pool recently who had a good figure, but had pretty severe varicose veins running up & down her legs. We ALL have our own imperfections to find peace with, and I *think* I'm pretty close to being at peace with mine. (And THIS all being said 6 days before good ole Aunt Flow comes to town.....so I think I really mean it!
I mean, if I can be OK with myself in this lovely PMS hormonal state, it MUST be for real!)
Today, I am healthy (well, not really, I am sicker than a dog with a stupid summer bug that jumped me this weekend) but I mean I'm HEALTHY; my numbers are good, my physical fitness level is great, life is good.
Life will be EVEN BETTER in 16 days! First time on a real beach, first time using a passport....soooooo excited! And I truly at this point don't care if my midsection is wobbly & stretch-marked in a two piece. This is me. I came a long, long way to get here.