I've been very depressed lately. That would surprise people who know me personally; I'm actually a friend who lifts the spirits of those around me. My depression has come from my own inadequacies and the fear that I am, by nature, worthless. I know.... sounds really dark, but it usually doesn't last too long.
Because of SP coaching today, I'm to list three things I'm grateful for. I've kept gratitude journals in the past, but seemed to get stuck on a group of things to write down and it got too repetitive. Hence it really wasn't heartfelt gratitude.
Today, however, this is what I'm grateful for:
First, my husband. He's out of town right now, but before he left, he not only did work to prepare for the interviews he'll have this week, but filled up my car, got it washed, and straightened the kitchen, which I'd left messy the night before. He welcomes me with a hug every morning and sets an example of hard work and diligence for his somewhat more lazy wife.
My home, which consistently makes me feel good. It's well designed, kept cool in this Dallas summer heat, and because of my organic gardening habits has soil that is rich and friable.
My good night's sleep. I'm trying to establish a better sleep routine, and though last night I didn't get the 8 hours that is my goal, I feel rested and ready to work today.
Those are biggies, of course. My wish is to start noticing the little things, which is my nature, but I don't remember them long enough to write in a journal. Things like the coolness of shade on my morning walks, and the pleasure of seeing plants that are healthy and well nourished. Another blog, perhaps....