Monday, August 12, 2013
This day is the occasion of my 61st birthday. That, in itself, is sobering! (Like, how did this happen, really?) This isn't the happiest birthday, as I'm coming to terms with what appears will be a divorce. I did want some changes in my marriage and I have changed, but I didn't seek this outcome. I 'm trying to take one step a time and to be clear about this. What happened? Is this "for real"? Am I really seeing what is? I am choosing to NOT live in anger -- I want to be about a positive direction for me, our two young adult sons, and even for my husband.
I've really been moving in the direction of taking "extreme" care of myself over the last couple of years -- spiritually, emotionally, socially, and now physically. I need to do this even more. In the next few weeks I have an extremely busy work schedule. I'll try to meet deadlines and set reasonable self expectations. I will track, track, track, and be "on" SP as much as I can, I will exercise, make time with friends, and reconnect with some family members. I'm going to schedule a message for my birthday - a gift to myself. I can do this. I want to live well.