Monday, August 12, 2013
This week A&I has challenged us to reflect on why we joined Sparkpeople.
Growing up my family lived around food! If you didn't find someone in the kitchen or sharing food with someone in the house/ family events you were probably sick! My family has its share of health problems on both sides! I always knew I didn't want to be that way, but I just couldn't imagine changing my habits. My younger brother couldn't seem to gain any weight and my sister always was petite and could find anything she wanted to wear. My other little brother could lose weight and then go right back to his habits. I just kept climbing!!!
I had just finished college in spring 06, started my masters fall 07, started a year long internship, and was working a few jobs to make ends meet. I was back at home with my family. And all I remember getting growing up was here eat this- then you are gaining so much weight- you need to go on a diet. My mom's friend had pointed her to spark and then she got me to join in March 2007. I started and it was alright- I lost a little weight, then times got busy and I didn't make Spark a priority. I gained back the weight I lost and then some. By Jan 2008, I had finished grad school and I resolved I could do it this time. Unfortunately, same results-but gained more. In Jan 2009, I thought sure I need to be fit for my wedding! I can't believe that I am at 215 lbs... well I stuck it out longer- but between family, constantly on the run, and other excuses I could come up with- it didn't last. I was married at 212 lbs in June 2009. By Jan 2010 I had started climbing the weight scale again- tried again and just flubbed. I was living at school, my husband worked nights (so we never saw each other), we ate odd hours and really unhealthy! Stress from work just bolstered eating more and more. I tried again in Jan 2011 and 2012, I also had some "restarts" in other months these years. I seemed to do nothing but stress eat, get frustrated, and feel a lack of support. I hadn't found the right communities or groups to help me and most of my friends supported my stress eating, because they were doing it too!
By Christmas of 2012 I hit the scale at 240 lbs!!!! I was flabbergasted and really upset at myself. I had always said to myself that I was maintaining at a lower weight than that. I hit Sparkpeople again, but with new resolve. I devoted time to chat in communities, I paid for the first "fitness trainer" program ever- Spark Coach, and I started really focusing on my goals. I was finally putting myself first deciding what I needed to help myself- so I could help others.
Since then I have joined a few communities that have really supported me in this new endeavor- even during my long plateau and stress of the end of year and my parents moving. Aspire and Inspire, NOVA Sparkers, and TLL- along with some spark coaching and challenge sites have been instrumental in making me stick with the program. It has helped me start to better prioritize my needs.
Now, after almost 8 months of recommitting myself to my goals and SP- I can say I have stuck it out so far, I have made some amazing friendships, I am learning how to say no or limit myself when I am around other tempters, I have lost weight, I have joined a gym and hired a real trainer to kick my butt, I fit my clothes better, I am finally leaving my negative self-image behind, I am enjoying more water than I use to, I am finally making time for me and my husband, and I am enjoying life better! This time I professed it would be different, it has been and it will continue to be as I have the support that I always needed!!!