Sunday, August 11, 2013
Today was just kind of a yucky day. There were some very good moments and some very bad moments. Daughter and I were really butting heads at times, and then Husband came in to scold her and in the process scolded me, criticizing my parenting right in front of her. I hate it when that happens, but it especially irked me tonight. He's been working a LOT lately...which I'm not really complaining about. We really, really need the extra money and I'm grateful, but sheesh. I'm doing all the household stuff by myself and all the parenting by myself. Even when he is home (which is rare, and hard enough on its own) he doesn't really do anything. I don't expect him to do much, because he's working so much and really long, long hours. I have been a single parent for essentially the whole summer and I just didn't need any criticisms right then...and certainly not in front of her. Grrr. I just felt like I'm doing the best I can and I just needed support, not criticism. Then we're in bed, and he just sits there not saying anything. Of course, as usual, I got the ball rolling. And he just continued to sit there. He didn't really have any contribution, all he said was that he'd apologized already and didn't know what else to say. All I wanted was some encouraging words, maybe a "thank you" for all that I've been doing, ALONE...kind of like how I thank him multiple times a day for all HIS hard work. Do I get a thank you? No. Am I even acknowledged? No. So I'm on the couch at 11:45pm because I can't sleep, my heart is heavy, and I just generally feel blah. I'm just going to try to watch some tv and zone out.