Sunday, August 11, 2013
I am feeling so overwhelmed!
There is so much to planning a wedding. So many questions to answer and decisions to make. We wanted to try and keep the budget reasonably affordable for us, but even then it seems inevitable that we will spend way more than we originally thought. Lesson learned!
We are keeping it small, just the most important loved ones are on our guest list so far, with a bit of room to add others if needed. One thing I don't want to skimp on is photography, and holy guacamole it's much more expensive than I expected! It seems like a worthwhile investment to make, since nice photos will be around forever, while the memories we make may fade eventually.
This is keeping me up at night. I find myself tossing and turning, my mind turning over endless possibilities for how to pull this off. I'm overtired thus my patience is short. I wish I could put a cohesive thought together, but my 3 year old daughter has a physiological need to constantly, incessantly be talking, or making noise with her mouth one way or another. It is driving me crazy! I want quiet so badly, and it simply doesn't exist in my world right now.
If venting is supposed to make me feel better, it's not working! Boo. On the plus side, we chose our reception site. Just thinking of it puts a smile on my face, it's going to be at a state park beach, and it's a beautiful place! The fact that we've made that decision, and set the date, is nice. I'm excited about it. There are still several hundred questions to answer about that though. What are we going to serve, where will it be set up? How will my guests be entertained? How will we set up music without any electricity? Will people actually want to swim? I thought it would be a fun place to enjoy a summer afternoon together in celebration. Should we bring games or something to play?
I need to figure out how to narrow my focus and deal with one thing at a time. And really let go of the rest of it until it's time to figure out the next aspect. Otherwise, this is going to be a very hard year! Many of the ideas I have for what I want to do will depend on getting help from others to make it happen, and I'm very nervous about asking people for help! I know I can't do it all by myself, and I'm really hoping I have enough people in my life who'd be willing to lend a hand to make our wedding day work. The logistics are going to be a challenge, and I do have faith that all will work out in the end. We are getting married, and it will be wonderful, come what may. I just wish I could get some sleep!