I'm feeling good today. I got a LOT of sleep, I guess the not-sleeping-well caught up to me, but I've made up that deficit finally.
I've started taking Relora at night with my other bedtime supplements and it knocks me right out, seems to help me get a much better night's sleep (I didn't wake up to use the restroom ONCE, let alone the 4-5 that I usually do, and my muscles hurt way less today, like they are actually finally recovering from the strength training, yay!).
I am putting away my scale until Sep 1st, as I previously blogged. I'm going to track my calories faithfully every day, stick to my range and small deficit, and get regular exercise, and if my body decides to lose 1/2 lb or 5 lb, I will let it do its thing. As long as I am losing on a monthly basis, I will count it as a success... if it takes me longer than other people, so what. It's my journey.
It's really liberating. Like, I want to change my habits for life anyway, so why would it matter how long it takes to lose the weight, as long as I am losing? I feel empowered. Also, shifting my focus from weight to health has me realizing the things I can do to improve my mental health: STOP worrying about the scale, get more face-to-face contact with people, do positive self affirmations and work on accepting my body the way it is now.
Finally, I need to make a list of stuff to do before school starts back up on the 21st.....might as well do it here in my blog:
-Clean the rest of my room and desk to facilitate studying
-Finish my laundry
-Organize my closet to include only stuff that fits & looks good
-Refresh myself on Japanese and review previous lessons
-Get my new student ID so I can ride the city bus
-Make doctor's appointments once the health insurance kicks in next week
I'm nervous about school, but confident that I am able to do it. I'm taking an accelerated program, so it will be a lot of work, but I'm in a much better place mentally and physically than I was last fall, and this is my last year before finally earning my degree. I will do my best~
(a lb of muscle vs a lb of fat.... a reminder to myself that a few lbs per month is not so slow as it may seem)