Sunday, August 11, 2013
I think I'm finally getting to the point where I can recognize what enough looks and feels like. I know it will always be easy to override my body's natural mechanism that tells me when I am full. It's been a habit for far too long to just think it will go away completely, but I have recently had some success with realizing that I don't need to eat more to be satisfied.
At work on Friday there were bagels for a birthday celebration for a co-worker. Typically I would have eaten one even though I had already eaten a full breakfast. This time I was able to recognize that not only was I not really hungry, but that I wasn't craving the bagels even with them right in front of me. That made it a lot easier for me to walk away.
Yesterday I thought that I wanted a day to just eat whatever I felt like without worrying about fat or calories. I made a plate of nachos. Some of my newly-acquired healthier habits must be taking root, however, because when I finally decided to track what I ate that day I found that, surprisingly, I was still on track. I went over in my fat intake, but that has been typical of my journey so far. When I stop losing weight I will take a look at trying to bring that back in line, but for now I am taking baby steps with some of my unhealthiest habits and that is enough.
What would happen if I were to apply this principle of "enough" to the rest of my life? A spirit of gratitude for the people in my life and the things I have. A desire to share what I have more freely, to give more generously. If I have enough, I can give more to others. I would be less inclined to use shopping to fill up the empty spaces of boredom or lethargy. I'm responsible with my money, but I could certainly save more than I do...so that I have enough not just for today, but also for the future. I am coming to the realization that there are enough blessings to go around. I just need to recognize and share them.