Sunday, August 11, 2013
In a few blogs I have shared my struggles with moderating alcohol use. It was a pretty big problem last year when stressed out. These days I'm not drinking every night, which is great, but when I do drink, sometimes it triggers binge drinking (and eating). It feels to me like a bad habit, and I should be able to change it with behavior modification, using some tools at SparkPeople.
Another site that seems to have really good advice, specific to alcohol moderation, is Moderation Management. Using some of their advice, I've been sitting down, examining my triggers, and planning new rules for myself.
Tonight I went to a get-together and was very anxious about whether my new rules would work. Well, they did, pretty well. I made myself space out the drinks by drinking water. One of my triggers is being drunk - being drunk can make you an idiot and you totally avoid thinking about the fact that you will feel horrible the next day. You say "just one more!" but it's not just one. So my new rule is to not get drunk. A little buzz is OK but if I start to feel drunk then I will set my drink aside and drink water instead until I sober up.
I hope to keep practicing these new rules until they become second nature.
Have I ever had a healthy relationship with alcohol? I'm trying to think. In college I had too many commitments to get drunk more than a couple times per semester. I hated hangovers. When the old man and I were first married and then having babies, drinking was just not that interesting to me. I think, again, we had a lot going on. And of course you can't drink much when preggers - I hardly drank more than a sip of beer.
Honestly I think this stupid behavior started when my kiddos were little. And the drinking probably correlates with some particularly blue periods. I seem to go through 6 months or so of overdrinking and then just get tired of it and clean up my act (until the next crisis). But I have never really come at it head-on like I'm doing now with the proper tools and motivation. (1) Be really honest. (2) Problem-solve. I'm actually a pretty good problem solver, if I can take the time to dig into the problem.
So that's where I'm going and I hope it works out. It should do all sorts of good things for me, including lose weight.
And yes my clock says it is almost 5 am. I was tossing and turning all night and finally decided to get up and waste some time on the internet! Shouldn't have had that second cup of coffee this afternoon! Also thanks to my nice long walk at the gym, my muscles are aching and that keeps me from relaxing. Ibuprofen is not doing much for it! Thank goodness we have no plans tomorrow. OK tme to try for sleep again...