Saturday, August 10, 2013
I promise I will get around to posting about my 'holiday' but things are a bit hectic at the moment. Anyway, I wanted to share what seemed like quite an important thing.
After the first few days of my trip, I was at the lodge on my own for a week. Some people would find that quite daunting but it suited me. I'm a bit of a strange mixture because I am a loner, yet I do love people and enjoy spending time with them. Anyway - my moment:
I don't ever look at myself in a mirror. But this particular day, I came out of the en suite, stood in 'my' bedroom, and dropped my towel. And suddenly, I viewed my body not in comparison to what it was when I was 20 or 30 odd, but just as it is now.
The bingo wings I felt were developing haven't. My back is still fairly slim. My legs are fine up to the thighs - but even the thighs aren't horrendous [just wobbly]. My stomach/hip/rear, is bad. But it was empowering to realise what needs work. I do want to lose more weight, but I realised that at the moment, toning is more important.
But perhaps the most important thing was being able to actually look at myself, AND cut myself some slack. For the first time in years, I looked at myself. And what is more, I looked and didn't feel ugly.