Saturday, August 10, 2013
Man Spark Coach has set a challenge for me today! Moderation, eh? Heck, if I knew about moderation I wouldn't be here, or at least not here in this condition. Tough one for me, anyone else?
See, I'm an all or nothing kinda gal. My instinct is not to sit and wait it out. My instinct is to DO, DO, DO!!!!! Procrastination causes me stress so if I know something is to be done, why not do it now? Like right now?!?!?!?! Yes, perhaps it is a little OCD. Hot and cold if you will. Because either I'm REALLY going for it......orrrrrrrr..........I'm not.
This journey is very tortoise and the hare. I didn't get to 271 lbs in one week. It crept up on me. 180 became 191 became 204 became 220 and so on. It's not like I woke up and decided to gain 80 lbs. Sooooo......... why do I think I can change all those behaviours, all the attitudes, the mental space that brought me here in a matter of weeks? Mmmm-hmmmm, it can't be done.
Oh, yeah - tortoise and hare analogy coming up. Okay, so I can be a little "harey" because I think I can speed the process up if I just do everything perfectly. Somehow, i can undo 10 years of bad habit building in several weeks if I just try hard enough. Huh, why isn't it working? Because I have to trust the process. Like the tortoise, a slow and steady pace will bring results. Slow and steady gives a chance for reflection, to react to obstacles ahead, to consider alternatives. Charging ahead like the hare leads to burn out. Remember, it was the hare, not the tortoise who needed the nap halfway through the race.
So, yes I am trying to learn moderation because it is part of the process. Is moderation natural to me? Instinctive? Nope. But, if I really listen to myself I can learn moderation.