I went grocery shopping the other day, and when I got to the store, I parked my car at the far end of the lot. This is something I always do, rain or shine. No matter how hot or how cold it is outside, when I go shopping I ALWAYS park at the far end of the lot, so that I will get some extra steps. Its just a small way to get some bonus fitness on top of my regular daily workouts.
Anyway, I made my trek into the store, and headed straight for the produce section. Since adopting a healthy lifestyle 18 months ago, the produce section has become where I spend most of my time when at the grocery store. I took my time, choosing lots of fresh fruits and vegetable...lettuces, peaches, bananas, apples, sweet potatoes, tomatoes and more. For me, freggie shopping has become the new shoe shopping, lol.
I was feeling so fit and healthy as I shopped, and I was in a great mood. After the produce section, I headed to the middle of the store to get the rest of my groceries. On the cookie aisle, I took my time, because that aisle is a challenge for me! I have to buy cookies that my hubby and son will like...but then again, I have to make sure that the cookies I buy are ones that I DON'T like! I was trying to decide between the peanut butter ones, the oatmeal ones or the coconut ones. (I like peanut butter and oatmeal...I just don't like them in cookies, lol. And I can't stand coconut. So those are the "safe to buy" cookies.)
Anyway, I finally decided to get one package of each, since they were on sale. As I put them into my cart, a woman passed me going the other way. And I saw it...the look in her eyes as she glanced at the cookies in my cart and then back up at me. There was a look on her face. I could almost read her mind. I knew she was thinking that a fat girl like me didn't need to be buying all those cookies! I wanted to cry out "They're not for me!"
I've lost 71 lbs in the past 18 months, but the truth is that I'm still overweight and have a lot more to lose. Strange as it may sound, though, I sometimes actually FORGET that I'm overweight!
Does it take a special kind of stupid to forget that you're overweight? If so, then call me extra special, lol. But its easy for me to forget that I'm fat, because I don't care about weight. I care about health...and boy do I feel healthy! I have changed my life so much since last year, and I'm not the same sedentary, lazy and out of shape person that I used to be. I am fit, healthy and strong. I may not look like an athlete, but I feel like one! I wanted to tell that woman "Hey, I workout! And see all these veggies in my cart? THOSE are for me, not the cookies!"
But instead, I smiled at her and continued with my shopping. And after I finished my shopping, as I was walking out to my car, I noticed that she was at her car, unloading her groceries. She had parked just three spots away from the store. I held my head high as I walked all the way to the other end of the parking lot with my cart full of groceries.
People may look at me and see an overweight woman. People may judge me. I guess I'll always have moments of insecurity from time to time. To look at me, you might not guess that I'm a vegetarian and that I don't eat junk food, or that I workout almost every single day, or that I did the 30 Day Shred last month. People who don't know me might look at me and think negative things. But in the end, my opinion of myself is the only one that counts. I know how far I've come, and I know how hard I'm working to reach my goal.