Saturday, August 10, 2013
I feel like I'm at a kind of cross roads in my self health journey here. I have lost 99% of the weight I originally set out to lose this year. I'm back to where I was in my "motivational picture". I feel VERY healthy, I feel like my body is very different now compared to what is was.
There's a few things on my mind now on what to do next. One thing that bothers me is my BMI. I feel like I look slim and healthy, I am actually starting to see some muscle definition in my legs, arms, and back. But my BMI still has me in the "overweight" column (I'm at 25.3 and "should" be under 24.9). I know my body, I know that I am physically structured bigger than I think most women. I mean, I can clearly feel where my rib cage and hips are and there just aint THAT much on them at this point. I'm tall-ish at 5' 7", wear a size 10 / 1 1 shoe, and can hardly ever find a bracelet that fits on my wrist without being completely stretched out. So I understand that the BMI scale encompases all women's body types and I will be near the top of that scale. But it still bothers me.
Given everything that I just described, I don't know how to set my next weight goal. I feel like I have more to do, but I can't predict how I will change and what kind of time frame to expect. I want to be reasonable with myself. I don't want to set up another 5 lbs loss goal with a similar time frame as I've just completed because I just don't think its going to happen like that. I think the next 5 lbs are going to take a LOT more. And probably a lot of net zero weight change between gaining muscle and losing fat.
I'm afraid to change anything in my tracker. The past two weeks, I've been doing more exercise than recommended, and generally staying within my calorie range - giving myself a few "over" days because of all the extra calories burned. I am very well aware of how I "fell off the wagon" the last few times I made a health push. I started to gradually eat more each day -without tracking- until I was back at the unhealthy habits and the weight just crept back over the course of a year. I'm very skeptical of the exercise more, eat more advice - just can't help that.
So I don't know. All I can do right now is what I have been doing. Just keep going and find out what happens.