I am so sad, I am so tired. I am grieving.
Friday, August 09, 2013
I am just moving slowly....nd I feel so sad and like I am in a bad dream. Walking in ways I don't want to walk but then,, I think I have to do this. There is so much out of my control, I just need to accept this, I know. I need to leave it with God and take the next step. Tracking is a priority; I cannot stop that. I am so sad. I need to rest. I need to exercise more -- I'm feeling this from the inside (when I started SP, I had such resistance to this).
There was a beautiful piece sung at our Wedding.
By George Herbert, to music by Vaughn Williams.
(from Five Mystical Songs)
Come, my Way, my Truth, my Life:
Such a way as gives us breath;
Such a truth as ends all strife,
Such a life as killeth death.
Come, my Light, my Feast, my Strength:
Such a light as shows a feast,
Such a feast as mends in length,
Such a strength as makes his guest.
Come, my Joy, my Love, my Heart:
Such a joy as none can move,
Such a love as none can part,
Such a heart as joys in love.
Becoming so heavy was a product of not really know how to love myself. I need to do that now.