Light cannot exist with darkness. It will cast a shadow over the light and block it out, much like a solar eclipse. I tried taking a picture of a rock my daughter made with scripture on it and my bible was casting a shadow over it. I had to keep inching the rock away from that shadow so I could get the picture I wanted, so that the rock could be seen in the best light. As I moved that rock, little bit by little bit, it reminded me of my journey with Christ and how the world tempts me to dip my toe into that darkness. But if I go too deep my own light will extinguish. I won't be putting my best forward to give the glory to God.. We have to take baby steps to keep moving toward the light.
"Food for the stomach and the stomach for food, and God will destroy them both." The body, however, is not meant for sexual immorality but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body.
Corinthians 6:13 - NIV
I am reading a book about the holy spirit, "Lead Me, Holy Spirit" by Stormie Omartian and I have been feeling God guide me to certain books and bible verses. Probing me about that little glimmer of disbelief that God can take away an unhealthy friendship, and yes, an addiction of sorts. Looking for self worth and love separate from God will not work.
It's like walking a tightrope between what I want, and what I know I need to do. I am flirting with danger, and I am soon going to fall. Thank you Lord, for your grace and mercy and for letting me catch myself before I made mistakes that are harder to recover from. I won't say can't be reversed, because I know through YOU I am redeemed and made new.
But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you.
- John 14:26
My life is my own to live and I am taking back starting NOW. no more living in the past, having fantasies about who I am. I am going to embrace all that I have now and not let satan win.
This past week ended with a 13.1 mile run. My running partner was sick and wouldn't be able to join the team. Since no one else is my pace I knew I would be running these miles alone. I was afraid.
As we started out I prayed for God to be with me and give me strength. I had my pandora set to play Christian songs. Every song that came on spoke to me. I was filled with peace and I knew the Holy Spirit was I side of me, and the first 10 miles went by so quickly. I had energy and had no doubt I could finish the last 3 miles, too. Not on my own, but with Him.
I was afraid, but it turned out to be such a blessing. As I am letting go of parts of me that are not meant to be, not pure, I am feeling more blessed with the presence of the Holy Spirit. I am seeing God everywhere. That run was the easiest half marathon I have ran, I felt light...and free.
During my 13 mile run (notice the light?)
After this week I will be exploring uncharted territory. There's no pretending I can't do it myself, Lord I need your help.
"And I had to find out who I really was
Who I really wasn't
So sick of who I was becoming
Yeah, tired of running
Time to look at the man in the mirror until I can learn to love (her)"
-Make the Money lyrics, Macklemore
"So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back"
- Imagine dragons It's Time
Picture taken during an early morning run.
"Early in the morning I will celebrate the LIGHT."
"When I stumble in the darkness, I will call your name by night."
God of Wonders, Caedmon's call