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An Update

Thursday, August 08, 2013

Too much is going on and I do not have enough down time to de-stress or exercise. I am worried about my kidney health right now and I cannot even keep up with my tracking or anything else that is on-line. I am finally feeling a bit better, cannot wait to be 100%. I hate being sick ontop of grieving.

There is so much family "drama" from dad's death that is ridiculous! I keep getting bad news one thing after another, and it seems as if I just figure out one thing and another rears its ugly head. All that I can do is to continue to trust my God who has NEVER failed me.

Just an example: yesterday i got a call from my vets office canceling my dog's reservation for the kennel (his vacation) while I take my vacation. I got two new kennels - left a few messages, I have to go check them out - one is $14.00 and the other other is $30.00 - what?! I paid $17.00 at my vets and they recommend the $14.00... just stressful! It took two days to get a return call - grrrr!

I spent the day with my brother today - left the house at 6am and did not get home until 4:30 pm... I am tired! Went to the cemetary today - will share details on another day... Neice from England took OFF and is not doing any of the family stuff that brought her to Michigan - via hospice/red cross due to dad dying. I am just tired! I am not sleeping, I cry way to much and I miss my dad. He was a main part of my life. I am way to busy and blah blah blah!

I will do my best to exercise tomorrow - I am purely exhausted with 4 hours of sleep last night, running all day today and I have a two hour training in 10 mins for my Jewelry Business.

I appreciate the support from all of YOU - I will return -

God Bless you!
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  • FISHER011
    1671 days ago
    You are by nature a care giver. That someone is dropping their ball does not mean YOU have to pick it up. What ever state everyone else is, be sure to care give yourself first! That's the only way you can help someone else.

    When my mom died, I cried every day for at least 3 months. She died 20 years ago on Aug 18 and i will have a good cry as i have every year on that date. Please do not compare your grieving behavior to any one else's or judge yourself - we all grieve differently.

    1680 days ago
    We're here. emoticon
    Hang in there, take a deep breath. Grieving is normal, this is part of the process, so don't berate yourself for it. It makes everything else more difficult to deal with right now, but that will pass in time. Just know we're here, and we care. In time, the pain will become less sharp, and eventually be replaced with memories sweet and dear. Dad will always be with you in your heart. And yes, God is with you, holding you close.
    1680 days ago
    Friend, you must take a few moments each day for yourself. What do you enjoy? A bubble bath, a cup of coffee or tea in solitude, 20 minutes with a book, 5 minutes in Psalms, a favorite song? You need to take care of yourself. I understand all too well about being over stressed, over busy, about so many people needing a piece of you - but you need to take care of yourself - no one else will do it for you.
    1680 days ago
    Hugs to you, what can I say except try and take it slower and breathe. Your Dad would not want you to be sick. I know it is hard on you, and I can say this and mean it for I went through the same thing.
    Be good to you Jean, for you need your self right now. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1680 days ago
  • STRINGI719
    Be kind to yourself, and say "No" whenever possible. You may need to cut back a little and just cocoon for awhile to let yourself heal.

    Prayers lifted for you....
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    1681 days ago
    hang in there hugs
    1681 days ago
    Hang in there.
    1681 days ago
    Praying for you to have peace and that God will comfort you while you are going through this grieving time. Just remeber God will never leave or forsake you.
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    1681 days ago
    Praying God's peace over you. Take care of yourself!
    1681 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss and pray that GOD will sustain you during this difficult time. Keep the faith and don't give in or up!!! emoticon
    1681 days ago
    I hope you get some always helps. Try to take it one thing at a time.

    1681 days ago
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