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Thursday, August 08, 2013

So Ive been on this journey now for awhile...4yrs give or take a few months. i have lost 117lbs total. That sounds like alot. That IS alot, but you know whats so crazy is that I still feel like I look that same way that I did when I was super big. Size 24 pants to size 10. I still feel disqusted with my physical apearance at times, and then I look in the mirror and I see what a difference there is. I look at pictures, actually I showed a coworker today my fat pictures and she didnt believe it was even me! That is a compliment. But why do I feel so down about myself? I have been finding it hard to get motivated again. I have a lot of personal things going on right now and to be honest I am more stressed out than ever in my life. Sometimes i dont eat when Im stressed then I get so hungry that I eat crappy things. and crappy things make me feel better for a short time. Then I feel sick from the carbs and sugar...and I get tired...and I dont wake up in the morning to go to the gym..then I feel like crap because Im not excercising. Ugh. What a vicious cycle. But after showing my coworkers my fat pics, I have decided that I have come a long way. I look like a totally diff person. i still have 20lbs to lose until Im completley happy with my results. .
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  • DEE1221
    You have done such a geat job. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Give yourself a pat on the back for all the work you have accomplished!!. Be happy, feel good about yourself, work on, but don't get stressed over the last 20 pounds. You can do it!!

    1658 days ago
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