Thursday, August 08, 2013
So Ive been on this journey now for awhile...4yrs give or take a few months. i have lost 117lbs total. That sounds like alot. That IS alot, but you know whats so crazy is that I still feel like I look that same way that I did when I was super big. Size 24 pants to size 10. I still feel disqusted with my physical apearance at times, and then I look in the mirror and I see what a difference there is. I look at pictures, actually I showed a coworker today my fat pictures and she didnt believe it was even me! That is a compliment. But why do I feel so down about myself? I have been finding it hard to get motivated again. I have a lot of personal things going on right now and to be honest I am more stressed out than ever in my life. Sometimes i dont eat when Im stressed then I get so hungry that I eat crappy things. and crappy things make me feel better for a short time. Then I feel sick from the carbs and sugar...and I get tired...and I dont wake up in the morning to go to the gym..then I feel like crap because Im not excercising. Ugh. What a vicious cycle. But after showing my coworkers my fat pics, I have decided that I have come a long way. I look like a totally diff person. i still have 20lbs to lose until Im completley happy with my results. .