Thursday, August 08, 2013
These past two weeks, I've had almost nonstop grandchildren. A good thing in many ways, of course. A disaster-in-the-making in others!
I've learned a lot about how and why I gained and re-gained for so many years. We've done special things, many of which included special foods. Like, when Trish and Rebecca were here, I fixed quite a few of their favorites. We went to a KC baseball game. We had several dinners/parties with the other Fulton family. And I ate - and overate.
Now that I have at least one grandson with me almost all the time, as David works out his move in with us, I'm fixing more snacks. And eating more snacks. I've also noticed (in retrospect) how often I've finished that quarter of a beef patty, or that last spoonful of cottage cheese, or..., or..., or..... You get the picture.
And, while I haven't been an after-supper eater for a long time, I've started in again. Stress? Because I "deserve" it after all that kid time?
Anyway, I'm really struggling with out-of-control eating right now, and I've got some major learning/re-learning to do! Self-discipline just isn't cutting it. I've got to come up with more (better?) reasons to make better choices before I'm right back on the yo-yo track again!