Fear of Change
Wednesday, August 07, 2013
I've been a little off my game lately, succumbing to temptations that usually don't faze me and dragging my feet on work outs. After a few days of soul searching, I think I figured out what's interrupted my regularly scheduled programming (and mindset):
Change. And fear thereof.
The end of this month is bringing with it some huge changes. My current job ends and I'm moving. My fitness studio is closing -- not that I'd have been able to go to it any way what with moving 50 miles South. I have two months off which is great but will bring financial challenges. Then I start a new job in October.
I have a lot of reasons to be excited and lots of reasons to be nervous. To put it bluntly, I have a fear of the unknown. It brings on anxiety.
The best response to my anxiety is to double down on my healthy life style. Work out more, eat even better, get tons of sleep and water, make time for quiet reflection.
However, my instinct is to do the opposite. I reach for food, alcohol and caffeine.
I'm really glad that I figured out what was stoking my anxiety. Now that I know what the problem is, I can focus on fixing it. Step one is ignoring those unhelpful impulses honed from years of self-medicating in the face of anxiety. Step 2 is taking affirmative action to quiet the nerves. I can do this. I will do this. I will make this move without letting it take me far off track. I will master my new life.