Well ...on Sunday morning I had a melt down.....my unexplained weight gain and the frustration of it all, and the fact that NO ONE SEEMS TO TAKE IT SERIOUSLY just got too much for me! I keep getting the "just watch what you eat and exercise" advice! Hello! I have been doing THAT and it doesn't work......not for long anyway. ( by the way none of you have ever said anything to upset me, so don't worry about that...it is usually non sparkers in my life)
I am waiting for my physical next week, but in the meantime the scale is just going UP and UP and UP and I have to say it is driving me to emotional eating which is NOT HELPING!
YES I KNOW...I shouldn't, but if you have ever been addicted to sugar, as I have, you will know it takes something akin to REHAB to help get out of the cycle!
I need SUGAR REHAB, I need someone to understand and LISTEN, I need to have my doctor rule out Thyroid and all the other issues. I need to have my IRON AND VIT B levels fixed....and I need SUPPORT. I am not afraid to admit it!
I just don't have the energy or will to "TRY ANOTHER EATING PLAN or DIET"...I just can't do it anymore... ( DH suggested I do weight watchers!~)
SO this is the solution I have come up with:
Tracking food on SP - it's free, just takes effort.
Talking hubby into buying me a 3 month membership at the community center (gym and pool)
Regular visits to my doctor to get weighed and check blood-work - in addition for treatment for Iron AND VIT B 12 treatments. I am going to talk my doctor into giving me a full hormonal blood screening and if I can prove to her that I am eating well, but still putting on weight, ( and I will have all the proof on SP) then she will be more willing to push for more tests for thyroid etc.
THAT IS THE PLAN!~
If it works then I will extend the gym membership, I have to prove to DH that I will use it first! :-)
This may be sideways - sorry!
I mowed the lawn yesterday....and the kids cycled around the road we live on.
The other day a friend of mine was craving milktart ( it is a South African) dessert...so I made one for her and her friends. I had one piece and they polished off the rest! LOL...
I made it really thin though...I didn't quite make enough filling, but it was on short notice...and it had been an age since I made it and I used the dish that is a little too wide, so it made the milktart turn out thin.
Anyway it was a nice feeling to give her just what she was craving from our home country...and in return the kids and I got to swim in her salt water pool!
I am gearing up to do some home improvements! It is hard tackling it on my own WITH THE KIDS HOME...but I gotta try.....my backdoor area is driving me NUTS!
I have been looking on pinterest for inspiration!
OH ...I have board on pinterist for "fitnesstrainingforlifeandadve
ntures" if anyone wants to pin stuff.
OTHER THAN THAT...every day is a challenge for me in terms of not having another melt down. I am waiting for my physical....and it is only 5 days away! I CAN DO THIS!
Thanks for all those who have commented and sent their love and support!