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Taking Action

Tuesday, August 06, 2013

I woke up this morning and the first thing I read was this ...


The Universe is speaking to me and I MUST listen and take action. Depression is a nasty beast, I've battled it on and off for years. At one point I was medicated for it plus I've sought professional help to discuss it. I know my signs and I know how far I can sink. I'd rather not continue to go down the path of darkness feeling cold and alone. Time to take action.

First steps are the hardest ...

No more hiding mentally.
I've already sought out a friend to confide in and I've made my depression known to all of you. I'm not good at vulnerable and just taking these unforced steps have helped.
I confessed to someone who has known me over 11 years that I am a binge eater and that I hide food. Although shocked he was supportive.

Talk.
I've started to talk to the person(s) causing the most pain. It's unpleasant and uncomfortable but from here there can only be change.

Work out.
I stopped working out weeks ago when I hurt my shoulder. I use time and distance from my current gym as an excuse as well as my workout friend not being available. *CLEARS THROAT* This madness must stop!
I am walking away from my other gym. It no longer works for me and I must let go and move on. As a gift to myself, I am joining the gym I sought out yesterday. A 30-min. hardcore ST session allows me to utilize the place during my lunch hour.

Be Creative.
I've over shadowed my creative side. I have multiple projects in my brain that I'll be putting into action soonest.

Accountability.
Hold myself accountable and those around me.

Actively finding my giggle




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1DERLAND14 9/3/2013 6:45PM

    WOW, I commend you to be able to put your thoughts and emotions into words and to be so open. You are definitely on the right track by making a plan of action! I know it is difficult when we feel like we can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, but keep fighting and you will get there! emoticon

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ENDUROVET 8/10/2013 9:14AM

    A most Excellent Plan... carry on my dear!

(I know a lunchtime workout is the only workable solution for my schedule these days - see latest blog entry for details ;-)

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BLISS_OM 8/9/2013 1:52AM

    It is SO BRAVE and COURAGEOUS of you to admit your challenges and fears and RELEASE the stigma and shame!!! You are BOLD and a Warrior Woman! I love that you have a plan of action, too, I find that always helps me activate and manifest my truest hearts desire. I will pray for your success. I also suggest you check out the book, Daring Greatly by Brene Brown - she talks about repelling shame with truth and sharing and being willing to dare greatly! I also recommend ANYTHING written by Sark! A California based artist who's also combatted depression and overcome a really twisted and painful childhood of abuse to become one of the most light-filled, JOY-Seekers on the planet! When you mentioned actively finding your giggle - I thought of her. One of my favorite SARK-isms, is to LIVE JUICY! Go for it! You are RESPLENDENT & BEAUTIFUL and WORTHY OF ALL GREATNESS! Blessings, Bliss! emoticon

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TRYSCHE13 8/7/2013 12:21PM

    Hang in there, realizing what you are dealing with is half the battle.

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MANLEYSANDY 8/7/2013 11:44AM

    I wanted to leave a comment on your previous blog but work has been so hectic!!!

I too, battled depression, since as far back as I can remember, but I only admitted it to myself when I sought out professional help after going through a divorce. It is hard for people to understand, but it is a disease that needs attention and care, sometimes with medication, sometimes with professional help, sometimes with both, but everything you said above are absolutely fantastic action steps!! I also know that you will explore all your options as you progress, because you are a doer!!

As you know I sought out some professional help recently and as hard as it is, having and doing those uncomfortable things are the best thing!!

Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable, I know it is so hard, but it will be so worth it in the end!

Sandy
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NEPTUNE1939 8/6/2013 4:02PM

    You are UNIQUE! The wisdom of Solomon still holds true today. He is said to be the main author of "The Book of Proverbs" There are 31 short chapters advising those interested in coping with life, business or profession. I challenge you to digest the contents of one chapter a day. At the end of 31-days repeat the cycle three times.

The Book can be accessed for free on the net so you have nothing to lose & everything to gain. You are in my prayers, Earl emoticon

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