I am always lecturing my 6 yr old about bad decisions. This is my sweet child who will try to kick my cat for no real reason, who will run in the bedroom and flip the light on when her sister is trying to sleep - just for the pure joy in hearing her sister yell at her. She's my difficult child. A friend of ours got a kick out of me because she was running through the house after I asked her to stop, and I am yelling after her, "Make the Good Decision and Listen." I am Jiminy Cricket for my 6 year old. She honestly can't function properly without someone standing beside her and guiding her into the right decisions.
Why am I talking about this on a weight loss blog? Well last night I had the choice to eat off the Whole30 plan - or to "Make the Good Decision and Listen" to the little voice telling me not to.
The Sugar Dragon kept saying, "but everyone else is eating a Klondike bar."
My own internal Jiminy Cricket rolled her eyes and said, "Why did M buy those...".
The Sugar Dragon grinned, her green eyes glinting in the dying sunlight and said, "Who cares why he did it - let's just care that they are here, and ours for the eating."
Jiminy protested, "I care. I want her to be healthy. I want her to be happy. Sugar does not equal happiness."
The Sugar Dragon laughed and said, "Who do you think you are fooling? Sugar IS Happiness. Remember all those times you struggled giving me up in June? Remember how hard it was to resist temptation? Remember how happy I make you."
Jiminy shook her head, and in a last attempt, whispered, "Remember how good you felt when you truly kicked the addiction? Remember how good sugar snap peas smelled, and how good your clothes fit. Remember that. Make the Good Decision and Listen."
By this time I was eating a Klondike bar. So I am back at square one again today. I'm not going to beat myself up. I am writing this blog to remind myself that I can and will do this. That I can and will make the good decision. The next few weeks may be hard, but I can kick the Sugar Dragon. I did it once, I can do it again. Now hopefully my breakfast shake will thaw out so I can drink it.
In other news... tonight DQ will be at the dance studio for 4.5 hours. She gets to learn her solo. She is beyond excited. I am beyond excited. We talked last night about what hard work she will need to do, and how she will have to practice often on her own, and she seemed to understand, and agreed that she was willing. It will be a long day for her.
I officially have the fabric for the side sewing job that I have committed to. I am aiming to turn out 6 bags a day 6 days a week for the next few months. This will all have to be done by November first. It will be a difficult few months, but I am determined to do this. The extra money I make will benefit the business I am trying to grow, and will also help my dancing queen dance, and my karate kid learn karate. I will be putting 50% profits into an account for them, and the other 50% profit into my business account as start up money. We shall see what happens!
I hope everyone is having a fantastic day today!!!